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Wednesday, July 29, 2009 ( the warm embrace that noone knows @ 4:32:00 PM ) :( limei is very annoyed at her body. and she knows she cant blame anyone but herself for feeling so sucky today. limei didnt go for nat day rehearsal today, and she's very mad at herself for making that decision in the end, cos afterall its kinda irresponsible. but limei really needed to go home before she annoys anyone unintentionally, cos she felt so tired she cant think straight and limei knows very well how she can easily dampen the cheery atmosphere with her crankiness D: i fell asleep at almost every single period today. what happened to paying 100% attention and keeping up with homework! pissssshhhh i cantwait for the long weekend. or rather i cant wait for ballet exam to end. ystd's class was again disappointing. limei's really disappointed at herself. she feels she's never found a lousier dancer inside her than the dancer she is now. and maybe she thinks limei's not working hard enough, and yes i know there's so much more i can do to improve, and yes i know im not pushing myself hard enough. but cant she just be more understanding? i didnt mean to be late for class, i had remedials right? and yes blame my stupidity for having to go for remedials, but in the first place what is the reason that i didnt do well for my CTs? limei always believed that hardwork pays, and even though limei's stupid, she knows that she needs to put in more time and effort to acheive the results she wants. limei's stupidity is of course one of the biggest factor for my poor results, but it wouldnt be so bad if not for having so little time to study for them. and i just rushed from school after having a super long day, with lessons up till 6, how is it possible that im not tired, and still perform to the best of my ability. call me weak or whatever yeah. she just had to make my day feel even suckier. if you think im procrastinating and not working hard, you are so wrong. if limei didnt want to do well, she wouldnt have chose to take exam this year.just so you know, limei's serious and when she's decided to finish something, she will. i could have just stopped everything, and make myself less tired, cant you see that im really trying very very hard to meet my own expectations as well as yours? but everytime i go for class i just come out feeling more discouraged, its as though you've given up trying to correct me, and nothing i do will ever earn your praise anymore. and everytime i get something perfect, its either "expected", or you pretend not to see it at all. all these years doing ballet, have i not been matching up with whatever challenge you give to me? i thought you could at least give me a little encouragement. but afterall, limei's bad bad techniques still boils down to limei's inabliities.her short fat legs, flat feet,tight hemstrings, bulky muscles, lousy turnout. D: D: D: 0 comments |