Racing the clouds

ALREADY GONE

2010-02-28T17:52:00.002+08:00

hello! i havent poisted here in a really long time! i just realise that my this blog skin is really quite nice haha!

limei is very sad and stressed.
and somehow she's stopped feeling hungry, or have cravings. and everytime i eat a full meal, it comes straight out. and i dont like that. and dont get me wrong im not ano or smth. just i think im really very stressed and i've only just realised now. and i think im gettinga depression seriously. like i checked the symptoms lol>< like how i tear easily, become very emotional easily, keep thinking of giving up, and just get knocked down by a car, and my mood's swinging really badly. and these are not things that will usually happen to limei! why!:(

someone save me please.

and limei's very very very sad.

she needs you to understand, but its just not working.

and dancenight's not working out, my whole cca's so scary and divided and it feels like some war's going on.. and limei's very scared cos she's so straightforward and too dumb and it feels like im threading on water and have to be really careful and really keep clear of everything and not get on anyone's side. sighhh life so hard. and they'remaking dancing so unenjoyable now. and school dance is the only place where i dance now, and i was hopingit could be my avenue of stress relief and finding some rememdy, but now they're taking it away :(

and cts coming

and limei might as well quit.

2009-09-05T23:19:00.001+08:00

MOVED

BYEBYE BLOGGER.

dont think i can handle posting at both sites:/ school's busyyyyyy:(

are we human, or are we dancers

2009-09-04T01:32:00.002+08:00

ITS FINALLY OVER

GOOD LUCK TO BABY FOR TMR!
i guess today wasnt good nor bad. ok some good some bad lol. so not a distinction nor a pass. of course merit would be good enough, and limei'll be happy:) limei wants to thank everyone who wished her:D

but hohoho limei ate alot of things that she havent eaten in a really long time! like KFC, macs and ISLAND CREAMERYYYYY:D

ughhhs limei's gonna put back all the weight realllll fast:/ dont wanttttt....... eeeeeee but food really makes me alot happier.A LOT. like i think my brain can produce more happy juices in me or something hahah!

im sleepy! shall wait for byby to hurry finish eom then go sleep. poots. nihon mura tmr i cant wait! i want soft shell crab and sashimi and chawanmushi and matcha icecream! wahhhhh i hear the fats in my body cheering lol!

my river flows in you

2009-09-01T09:15:00.002+08:00

limei's aching from all the dancing she's been having these few days:/

and she hasnt exactly been very on task and studying. like limei's efficiency's ultimate low these few days cos i just get too tired from dancing and dont feel like doing anything else. when i try to study, i fall asleep. and when i try to do work on the com, limei ends up stoning or other things like coming here:/

but limei's still happy although she knows she's seriously damn screwed for promos and all:/ and econs mock exam tmr and ballet exam too. i feel like.... pishhhhh....

had tuition ystd then went out to watch movie with byby at night. watched the proposal! it was a good movie:D so sweeeett. and rmb not long ago i thought that im probably going to give the movie a miss? turns out i didnt :) thanks byby for buying the tix early and asking me to go watch it! so i went home and it was almost 1230 already, ughhs. and byby went to study with his pri school friend who lives around my area. so envious of him lahh.. still can go to his childhood best friend's house and all. KOH KAIEN! if you happen to see this, I MISS YOU SUPER ALOTTTTTT! why you move houseeeee:( ohwells!

and yes limei wish we've got all the time in the world. but ohwells we've still got many other days to come, and then we can have all the playground times we want mm?(:

and yay i got my new playlist hohoho(:

time for ballet!

lil' louder knocking

2009-08-30T09:30:00.006+08:00

celebrated baby's birthday at swesens ystd!:D HAPPY BIRTHDAY ONCE AGAIN BABY! and in the end regine, sean, aaron, and julia were there:) i ate like damn damn damn SUPER ALOT D: ate my breaded fish salad, ( i know i should have chosen the one without breaded fish, but they encouraged me to lol:P), cookies and cream frozen yoghurt ( i was daring enough to try, and it was kinda gross. its like cookies and SOUR cream hahah!), and ofcourse, baby's BERRIES OVERLOAD ICECREAM CAKEEEEEEEE:D i hope baby liked everything and enjoyed her night:)

BABY! thanks for the bracelets too:) you know i think im really lucky to have you baby, cos you're really one of those few friends who genuinely cares, and is always so thoughtful for me, and being there for me. and i think the reason why i can be so happy now is because you were there to tell me that its ok to be with him when the time comes, and the feeling is right. and even though you've heard the story, and you know that somewhere in the middle it was all wrong, and i could well just become (her), (and she would just become who i was to him, and she wouldnt care or mind, cos she doesnt think like how i do, ) you taught me that i should just go for it because then at least when i emerge from it broken and torn into pieces, my heart would have died for him totally, and its at least better than being hopeful yet uncertain and miserable. yeap so my point is, JIAYOUS BABY! be strong and be brave like you told me to! dont think too much and worry too much about it. i believe everything will work out fine, just like how it always have between you two. the more you think it about it, the more miserable you'll feel, then everything seems wrong when its not exactly that bad. so must believe in yourself and i'd say just continue giving your all for this r/s k? cos who says it's been too long uh? i think 2 years still considered quite short what hahaha. mm so i'll be here if you need me(: HAPPY BIRTHDAY ONCE AGAIN!

oh and before that i had teaching. got teachers day presents from my kids so sweet right?(: oh and thanks miss foo for the teachers day present too!:D

then at night byby was super super sweet:) thankyou baby for making me feel like you're always there for me 24/7! after dinner i felt damn fat (okay its a dancer and gymmer thing, cant kick that mindset out of me anymore ugghs :P) so i decided to go for a run! but it was like almost ten already. then byby say not safe, so he actually chionged down to run with me :D yay byby best! but so stoopit cos i ran immediately aft i ate so much, then my appendix (according to byby) area hurts and i couldnt run properly:/ yeah so limei's run last nightwas ultimate fail sorry by:x mm but i think we did run close to an hour:)

then when i reach home. uhh yeah :( limei wish she has better inference skills and her brain can undersand things that are more complicated sometimes:/

you found me

2009-08-29T13:47:00.002+08:00

watched where got ghost with byby ystd lol!
and i think its such a stooooopit show hahaha:P
i banged into byby's head when the ghost came out at one part and i think the bang was super hard! ughhhs i hope byby's head is ok:P though some how the left side of my head hurts alittle when i press it oops:x but nevermind limei has high high high pain tolerance wheeee

but i still want to watch the proposal if i have time though, cos i think its nice lol. but i guess not cos limei's busyyyy:(

oh and i think byby's dancing improved alottttt! why is limei not improving for her dancing at alllll:/ no fairrrrrrr

oh and ystd before teacher's day celebrations, i went to have lunch at prata house with clan!! joyce, elmo, prissy, kaichi, jingxian, crystabel, candice was there too but with her class. and i ate super alot, havent eaten so much in a really really lond time! but ahwells its a rare lunch with clan, so cannot be a wet blanket!:D ahh i miss going for steamboat with clan at marina. so sad that place no more:( lets have steamboat aft promos!:)

and we have got a long weekend, but somehow limei has a feeling that its gonna zoom pass and fly by super fast:/ just like how today feels like its ending already:/

poots lah... ohwells, limei's a very very very happy kid though:) oh and HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!
lets jiayous for exam k! 5 more days:)

thankyouforbeingthereforme

gonna start it over, think i'll find a new town

2009-08-27T20:37:00.003+08:00

limei thought she'll never blog again.
cos she was really upset.

maybe this could be one of the biggest mistake in my life, that i've made right from the very start.
maybe it'll be the most beautiful memory i'll ever have, and have no regrets in life.
maybe our story will last and never end.

but no matter what, limei's made a decision that she cant turn back. limei knows she should have made the decision later (not that i'll change my decision in the end), but because limei should have let everything blow over entirely first, and save ourselves those unnecessary stress, insecurities and awkwardness. although she's feeling insecure, and somehow recently there've been so many signs that shows this could be all wrong, (and i cant believe my eyes when i saw them tgt), limei figured that there's nothing she can do other than to believe all that he's said, and hope that they're true. because so many people around me have told me that this wont work out, yet i'd still turn to you. i cant find a reason why i did, i guess it's cos its one of those few rare times that limei chose to really follow her heart, and heck it about her indecisiveness and all.

so byby, i hope you know how hard i'm trying to ask myself to just forget about what people might say about me and us already, and how even when i know what others are gonna say when they've finally found out about all this, i still tell myself to just believe, cos you're important to me. and i think i've proved that point enough already heh(:

but all the abit emo parts aside,
my byby is such a little boy at heart! haha so cuteeeeee and so easily jealoused too. just reminds me of how last time i throw tantrums when i dont get things the way i want them to be haha! but thanks byby for encouraging me for ballet all this while(: jiayous for tmr alright. im watching so itd better be good uh! heh heh heh heh:P

ok if you are grossed out by limei, you can just click the close button at the top of your window!:P its like aiyah since i already dont care about so many things, this one also nevermind already lo. anyway i think most people should be too busy with their own lives to even care anyway! i shall happily live in my partially permeable bubble!

and so i've posted about you haha(:

oh and HBO's showing adams family and my whole family's watching it, but i canttttt:( I LOVE ADAMS FAMILY:D heh think that was one of my favourite cartoons. so dark and funny tsktsk:P

ok back to studying for bio spa!:D

22:22

2009-08-19T23:47:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST CHOW!!
wo ai ni hen duo hen duo also:D

and limei havent been so happy for a really long time. and she finally decided to be truthful to herself tonight, because she was very very touched mm(: though everything felt so fast, and limei's still kinda unsure (not of what she's feeling, but of many other things). thankyou really(: because limei cant think of why you made your decision in the end, because there's been so many things, and limei almost managed to convince herself that there's nothing left out of it anymore. but then things changed. but im glad they did(:

22:22

and maybe you're right. i dont want to regret.

all i want is an ordinary moment

2009-08-18T23:07:00.002+08:00

i wish i can lie to myself all the time. then everything's so much easier.

ballet exam in 15 days :( you know, its like the feeling of drowning in water and trying to grasp for air. (anyway im hydrophobic, too much lipids in me i think) and limei's motivation ran away again. im really disappointed at myself for not being selfmotivated and disciplined. and she's upset that she's just desperately trying to catch techniques rather than really dancing in class. but i think this feeling will help remind me of how next time i must make my kids' classes enjoyable amidst all the technical trainings:)

and the worse thing is my studies arent exactly going very well either (though today's chem spa was YAY:D). its like im neither here nor there for everything:/ and im starting to lag again, suckks:( and somehow my brains are only with me during the lectures,but when i leave, then it kinda disappears or smth. somehow i just cant do almost all the tutorial questions! and it doesnt help that pw is so irritating, and its 5 weeks to promos:/

and i got to find out about so many things that i didnt know about. limei! you must listen and forget yes you must.

keep the faith baby

2009-08-12T23:07:00.002+08:00

you lift my feet off the ground,
spin me around,
you make me crazier, crazier, crazier.

feels like im falling and i,
am lost in your eyes,
you make me crazier, crazier crazier.

weijie, jasse, yuting and i just couldnt stop singing today! its like stuck in our heads, and we just unknowingly hummed it out haha! its so cool our we got the same earworms and i like when we sing tgt:) but we like only know this part leh hahaha

charles: did you do something to your hair these few days?
limei: no leh!
charles: these few days you look very good girl. last time you look verybad girl one.

O.O hahahaha so sad. i never knew last time i looked like a bad girl. although limei can go crazy and wild and rebellious sometimes, deep down inside she's still guai and conservative and pretty much a good girl trying to figure her life out ok! teeheehee so alvin and peeta stop saying i sick ok! limei is just knowledgeable hahaha:P

ohwells today was a crazy day for me. limei felt like just taking the bus home instead when going for ballet ( which limei was late for, for almost an hours:/ stupid nokia 157 bus grrr). firstly, there's no break in school. then straight after was dance prac, and then ballet till like 9 plus ten already. i just feel super drained after the whole of today:/ luckily daddy picked me up after ballet. or else i think if i had to take 2 buses home, i'll just procrastinate and start crying at the roadside or smth haha. i think these 3 weeks from today onwards is going to be really tiring for limei:( and limei hopes she'll pull through again, just like how she did for many times already.but today, if not for my dear JOEDI's msges, i wouldnt be able to constantly tell myself to think 'LONG TERM'! how one day i'll enjoy my fruits of labour.

and limei dont know how she should be feeling. cos every now and then, i'll be reminded of other people's misery:/ (ok misery sounds abit kua zhang lol) but yeah. and i had a feeling she needed to talk and wanted to, and for awhile limei felt like digging a hole and disappearing when she asked me that question. it seemed like a very normal question, but yet i feel there's so much behind it, or maybe it was just me. but yeah:/
it kinda sucks to be keeping everything in. but i dont feel like saying anything either. its not something that i should be bothered with or bother anyway. and limei usually just take it in and throw them to the back of her head mmhmm!

but yet her emotions are on a mini roller coster ride. how do you even affect me this much?
TSUNAMI lah you >.<

nobody but you

2009-08-10T01:32:00.002+08:00

OMG

GUILTY.
its the only word i can think off right now.

all the plans to make sure i wont have to feel this way:/ that feeling so close to sin if you really look at it closely.

SHIT. how come nothing's working): there's got to be something. and dammit. how come it feels like my deadline's become a new beginning.

baby says the feeling is ci ji. but i dont think so leh. id rather everything be simple and sweet and nice and neat :/ pisshhhh

limei's feeling sorry. but then again like baby said, its not entirely me right? or at least i hope its not:(

uhh and if you're thinking sick and illegal. then its not what you're thinking -.-

nothing works like you

2009-08-10T01:05:00.002+08:00

went shopping with YUTING WEIJIE AND PEETA for jasse's presents!

ended up shopping for ourselvestoo:D
bought a pair of slippers from rubi for only 10 bucks cos 2 for 20 and i share with yuting:) she bought one too! and then there was toy sale at TAKA! bought 2 carebears:)love them alot! they remind me of happy things:) champs and laughs! blue and orange:) limei's happy colours

and then after that watched UP! in 3D:) my first time leh. limei was so super duper excited:D and i only knew on that day that there's a movie called UP! cos i saw the behind the scenes and it seemed like a limei kinda movie:) and so i told myself i must watch it! its one of those really heartwarming movies that limei goes for haha. and limei's glad she caught it in 3D at lido. LOVED IT TTM!

and sat went to msfoo's housewarming, then left even before the bbq started. and wentfor NUDGE! thecrowd wasquite sad though,but the music and company was good! i hope jasse liked her bday gifts:D and thanks yongda for coming along!

and to you: uhh you know why i cant say your name, but yeah thanks for the cap:D so sweet of you:)

after that i went home andy eah talked to baby on the phone.
and limei thinks:
ITS TIME SOME PEOPLE LEARN TO SHUTUP ABOURRRRIT. before limei decides to lose her cool. which is uhhh badddddd..

underneath those adolescent skies together

2009-08-10T00:51:00.002+08:00

RED PARADE!

it was fun and high! but sorry dancers limei screwed up the front:( cos the music screwed up and blame limei for not being familiar with the music cos she only learnt the dance for 1 day plus :/
but overall its was a great performance! especially womanizer so proud of you all:) you all really pulled everything off so well. who says you guys need someone to hold the show up for you all man! you all are DIVAAAAAAs:)

and limei has learnt her lesson to not go moshing barefooted:P those huge guys trampled on her foot till there's alot of blueblacks:/ is the painnsssss.

and jasse gave me kinder surprise which is already out of production in singapore! but julian managed to find them somehow. lucky jasse! she is one xing fu the woman! and im a xing fu friend of hers teehee:D

our school'sdamn rich,nat day celebration was wooooaaahhh

everything is temporary rest your head

2009-08-04T22:30:00.001+08:00

STRESSED AND STRETCHED
D:

someone lend limei a shoulder?

but then again, the real limei usually will just lean her head back and let the tears flow back into her head.

jiayousjiayousjiayous!

some people hide their every desire

2009-08-02T23:00:00.003+08:00

GASTRIC D:
plus dizzy spells gosh:/

i havent felt like this for really long. i used to get it alot in RG cos of long training hours for gym and cos by the time i get home its wayyy past dinner time. i was eating dinner just now at 10pm,and suddenly i got ANKLE cramps.WTS whoever gets ankle cramps? hahaha now it adds to limei's list of weird cramps lol! the lastest addition to my butt cramp, ANKLE CRAMPS.

but i like the feeling of being so exhausted.and exhausted not as in drained and sick and tired of my schedule, but exhausted from dancing for 4 hours straight. although my whole body's limp and heavy-feeling now, but i think my heart and lungs feel happier haha! gym trngs in thepast was always 4 hours and sometimes it dragged till 5, and i really wonder how i managed it. limei was so amazed at herself today, cos she thought she wouldnt have energy by the time 3 hours passed. but no! today we did allegro and i could still jump!!! like jump high, sharp and neat:D yay! i hope this climax-ing feeling sustains throughout this whole month till exam. then maybe i'll get my distinction! who knows right? and yeah i finally feel like im improving! :) and yes i lost 1.5 kg hohoho hopefully i wont slacken and put it back:P i always lose 1 and gain 2 heh. so no limei must have control!!! tahan one more month! and i'll have all the chocolates and fried food i want in the world:D

and today i drank STARBUCKS:D
yes i went starbucks cos i had a hunch you werent going to come in the end. limei so should have asked someone else along anyway cos shes used to being stood up by that person. but i felt like just being alone and quiet and enjoying my favourite drink:)
limei decided to pamper herself today hehehe MOCHA FRAPPUCINO VENTI! plus whipped cream! okay yes fattening but who cares i think i burnt it all off during my 4hours of dancing lol:P and i met huishan at starbucks! i think she's getting prettier and prettier from the last time i met her:) I WANT 6-6 OUTINGGGGG!!!!! I DONT CARE LEON HAN ZHENG GUANG YOU BETTER GO ORGANISE COS YOU'RE MORE FREE THAN I AM! >.<
and yeah she was studying alone. and i was there to study too:) this is why we were bestfriends in pri school man, we're diff yet alike haha! but then her bf came and they left tgt. they look compatible:) and im really happy for her haha!
then after awhile i got bored of studying, and couldnt get anyone to come down and study with her, (so sad right:() yeah so she went for dance earlier, and thats how she danced for 4 hours cos she went for ADV2 class!

after doing entrechats trois and cinq (some jumping exercise with alot of beating of the legs)
bernice: "omg baby your calves super big and obvious suddenly when you jump!"

and then everybody turned and look at me (so sad:P)

after the second time

msfoo: "limei your calves ahh..... like 小老鼠!"

HAHAHAHAHAHA hate my calves lah. but i dont think i can jump without them:P
limei has a love-hate affair with her calves haha! see what 4 hours does to limei's muscles?

and sucks lah morning assembly's starting D: dontwanttttttttt..............

dont let love pass me by

2009-08-02T00:39:00.000+08:00

so now its officially 2months-1day to promos.

limei is can do this! mummy went for ptm today, and apparently the teachers said good stuff about me! haha i think this is the first ptm my mummy ever went to. somehow i think my parents are really extraordinary. like they can be so not intouch with the whole education thingy and yet their kids (ahem:P) can still make it in school. not that im making it in school now, but at least im at rj and my sis's at uni. other than suggesting that i should be going to rg rather than scgs last time, even though they knew scgs would be better for my dancing, they never really interfered with my education. i dont even think my dad knows about all the Alevels stuff and i had to explain very hard to my mum about pw lol. i never discussed with them about my subj combi, or the courses i want to take in the future. and i wonder what went right about what my parents didnt do. cos yeah today i encountered with a really strict parent of my friend.and im not too sure how he's able to stand it:/ i had so much freedom growing up. like my parents never questioned about my dancing either. not like many strict parents which i believe more than half of my school population has. ohwells in the case of upbringing, i guess less is more!

hmm and jiejie is at BINTAN now. so its really quiet at home haha! i think my parents are really bored cos got noone turning up the vol of the teevee in the living room lol. and my parents always agree to whatever we want to do and wherever we want to go. like jiejie want go to bintan then she go. wahhh best lah. she better buy nice stuff and food back for me!

7days. im turning the tables

was i the only one

2009-07-31T20:52:00.005+08:00

03/09/09 0930hrs
lets make miracles

ballet majors exam dates are finally out! and very coincidentally, i got the same time and date as last year again! so the day im taking exam, it will be exactly one year from the last time i made "miracles' and got distinction for advance foundation. so hopefully miracles will happen on that very day again! and yeah i need lots and lots of luck. i think it'll be one of those rare few times that limei thinks she really needs luck to dance well:/ usually, i never really felt that luck was a factor, its either you've worked hard enough, or you havent. ahwells.. i really dont know. i mean i havent felt so much insecurity before. its even more than what i felt for intermediate 2 years ago. and i didnt do very well for that:/

oh and Ms Lee's not my pianist:/ the only time she didnt play for me was intermediate, and yeah like i said, its the only time i got a merit D: pishhhh bad signs ive been getting lately uhh? but limei shall remain positive and not let her brain think of things that will cause her to screw up!

and surprisingly, i felt good aft ystd's class. like i havent felt like that for a really long time. yes i stil went for ballet even though i wasnt feeling too well. but i think i really cant afford to miss anymore classes. limei's going to have to miss one for nat day celebrations in school though. and yeah somehow i feel good! maybe cos ystd i didnt go to school and when i went for class i wasnt too tired, and i could focus and work my body properly;) ahhh how i wish there's always no school on the days that i have dance.. ohwells dream on limei! and limei knows now that it wasnt anything or anyone that contrbuted to limei's usual poor performance. its that body of her's that's konking out from exhaustion:) so conclusion? limei will eat healthy and sleep more so she'll do well!

and somehow i feel so much more energised today! it felt like someone just took all the fuzziness away from my head:) thank goodness! and we went back to rg for pw interview today! miss rg abit lah. like i really missed working hard, staying in school to do work with clan and all.

you know sometimes limei feels like she doesnt fit in anymore:/ not that limei's complaining or anything. she just knows that maybe somethings have changed, and it was inevitable. maybe i was too busy with my life, but somehow i just feel excluded now:( i know i havent been giving alot of myself this year. and i dont know but maybe some of you might thing i've changed cause of the 'stereotypes' im associated to now? i dontknow:/ but ohwells, no matter what i still love clan<3

and had dance prac today! it went well:) managed to clean up the dance. but i didnt get a full turn out today:/ and i think i wont get one till like wed which is the next rehersal already:/ but i trust that we're all hardworking people who will spend time practising in front of the mirrors at home tsktsk! and i must say: SANDY JIAWEN KUNHANG LYNN LYDIA!! YOU GUYS TOTALLY WORKED IT TODAY AND IT WAS JUST FANTABULOUSSS! keep up the good attitude and confidence babes:D

teeheehee look out for us on nat day celebrations:) oh and bring that hanky of yours, cos you're in for some HOT STUFF!

the warm embrace that noone knows

2009-07-29T16:32:00.002+08:00

NOT FEELING WELL

:(

limei is very annoyed at her body. and she knows she cant blame anyone but herself for feeling so sucky today. limei didnt go for nat day rehearsal today, and she's very mad at herself for making that decision in the end, cos afterall its kinda irresponsible. but limei really needed to go home before she annoys anyone unintentionally, cos she felt so tired she cant think straight and limei knows very well how she can easily dampen the cheery atmosphere with her crankiness D:

i fell asleep at almost every single period today. what happened to paying 100% attention and keeping up with homework! pissssshhhh i cantwait for the long weekend.

or rather i cant wait for ballet exam to end. ystd's class was again disappointing. limei's really disappointed at herself. she feels she's never found a lousier dancer inside her than the dancer she is now. and maybe she thinks limei's not working hard enough, and yes i know there's so much more i can do to improve, and yes i know im not pushing myself hard enough. but cant she just be more understanding? i didnt mean to be late for class, i had remedials right? and yes blame my stupidity for having to go for remedials, but in the first place what is the reason that i didnt do well for my CTs? limei always believed that hardwork pays, and even though limei's stupid, she knows that she needs to put in more time and effort to acheive the results she wants. limei's stupidity is of course one of the biggest factor for my poor results, but it wouldnt be so bad if not for having so little time to study for them. and i just rushed from school after having a super long day, with lessons up till 6, how is it possible that im not tired, and still perform to the best of my ability. call me weak or whatever yeah. she just had to make my day feel even suckier. if you think im procrastinating and not working hard, you are so wrong. if limei didnt want to do well, she wouldnt have chose to take exam this year.just so you know, limei's serious and when she's decided to finish something, she will. i could have just stopped everything, and make myself less tired, cant you see that im really trying very very hard to meet my own expectations as well as yours? but everytime i go for class i just come out feeling more discouraged, its as though you've given up trying to correct me, and nothing i do will ever earn your praise anymore. and everytime i get something perfect, its either "expected", or you pretend not to see it at all. all these years doing ballet, have i not been matching up with whatever challenge you give to me? i thought you could at least give me a little encouragement.

but afterall, limei's bad bad techniques still boils down to limei's inabliities.her short fat legs, flat feet,tight hemstrings, bulky muscles, lousy turnout. D: D: D:

my life's changing everyday

2009-07-25T21:21:00.003+08:00

LIMEI IS EXTREMELY JOYFUL TODAY:D
I FEEL REALLY REALLY LOVED BY MY FAMILY!

but one thing is that i didnt go for kbox withbaby, regine, yongda,sean,aaron,yixuan and leon today :/ and i think i missed outon alot alot of funn!but ohwells there'll always be a next time. i'll go when im more free:)

but then jiejie came down after work to meet me today. and we went to buy somestuff. i want to go shopping with jiejie! somehow both of us will always manage to get what we want when we buy things tgt. but today was only for a short short while cos we both had to rush home for dinner. i finally got my size s reversible fbts!

and jiejie and i went to art box to buy her planner from artbox!:) and she got this planner that has DREAM on it. and i think its reallysuits her v well. cos the planner'sfor2 years. and she'll be finishing her uni in just 2more years! and i really envy her. like how she's got this dream of being an accountant and she's fulfilling it step by step,and she's almost halfway there. ohwells, limei shall think hard about her goals too!JIAYOUS JIEJIE!! <3

and jiejie bought me a new pencil case!:D very veyr pretty ok! and it matches my planner that i bought from artbox the other time as well with jasse:D

THE WIZARD OF OZ!

i shall read the book again,kinda forgot about the details already:P

wizard of oz! and its blue! my favourite colour(as of now heh:P)

the back ofthe pencilcase!

and i realised i never blogged about my planner. so here goes! this is my pretty prettyplanner, which is getting old although i've used it for only less than a month, cos i got lots of things to write down:P

And its wizard of oz too!

so cute right! both of them tgt:)

and long longago, jiejie bought me these biscuits from ikea! noticet he huge ballerina! its for encourage me for dancing till super late, and also to eat in between rushing here and there opn my weekdays. but its kinda exp so i couldnt bear to eat them till like today, when me jiejie and mummy were watching our favourite weekend dramas:D

oh and i love my mummy. we talked for awhile in the morning before i went out. and its really a pity how mummy and daddy both could have gone so far in terms of studies and stuff but just couldnt financially. and my daddy gave up the chance for his younger brother( my uncle) who apparently turned out to be a good-for-nothing. ugghs cant stand guys who dont take life seriously. ohwells but we cant turn back time,so they can only work harder so that everything goes right this time round. so limei will try her best to study hard, and not let her parents down! if in case i go off-track, i'll remind myself that im doing this for them, and not for myself:)

2009-07-25T00:08:00.002+08:00

LIMEI IS GOING CRAZY :(

LIMEI WANTS TO LIVE WITH SANTA CLAUSE.
she wants a red nosed reindeer.
to bring her far far away from this terrible place.

SHE JUST WANTS TO HIBERNATE.

she's losing her zest, give up trying her best, needs ALOT of rest, just to pass that final test.
2 more months, come on limei!

i think limei did something she thought she'll never bring herself to do today. limei feels that it shows that she's trusting people with who she really is more easily now. to step out behind this screen that she tries to hide so much of her thoughts and emotions. she doesnt like the feeling of being vulnerable, but still she stepped out of her comfort zone, and learnt to trust, and share, and let her guard down. if you happened to have eavesdropped on some stuff cos you were of close proximity, lucky you i would say. cos limei dont think she'll ever raise it up again, or talk about my fears and concerns.

and limei is thankful to know that her friends, especially those made this year, will stand by her <3>

love gave me a kiss

2009-07-24T00:32:00.003+08:00

baby got H1N1 D: though its 'low risk' lol!who goes for hiphop with H1N1? BABY! and limei thinks she'll just have to get it one day.kinda like chicken pox i think? its just a matter of when. and i havent got either of them yet hoho. so i guess im lucky kinda? and i swear i have some powerful immune system or antibody against H1N1. like seriously someone bring me to some lab and get me researched and maybe i'll win some nobel prize and dont haveto study chem anymore!:D

ok dream on.

anyway, limei doesnt like dreaming. like really dreaming. cos its either she cant remember all her sweet dreams everytime she wakes up, or she can only dream of bad things:( which is really saddening D: but usually, i rarely dream (or maybe i do but i just dont remember them). but these few days i've been getting alot of bad dreams:/ and i dont like them. firstly they make you wake up really tired the next morning and you just feel like you havent slept a wink the entire night. secondly, i just keep popping up in my head through out the day, and limei gets really distracted. and thirdly, they're really long dreams without any plot so i cant really talk about it, except that they're bad D: ahwells. limei shall try again tonight.

OK GO TO SLEEP LIMEI!
YES SHE SHALL SLEEP

an old song that you know by heart

2009-07-20T18:57:00.002+08:00

so limei managed to get 20 mins off before her hiphop starts, so here she is blogging on the comp, because she just doesnt feel like doing anything, and take a short break in her day :) she knows she cant afford to fall sick now, cos her life's like a bullet train now, and she can only make short stops, and then go full force ahead again. so limei will make good use of her little breaks. like just staring out of the window listening to good music, thinking of how exciting the future will be:) or finally getting to eat a meal slowly, they just make me feel calm and comforted somehow. people say its life's little pleasures that we shouldnt take forgranted. and yes limei totally agrees.

the day is going to end soon for limei, and i must say today kinda went well. well, as in smoothly. stayed out of trouble, made good use of time, and paid attention in class :)

but i think today felt kinda weird. it felt like there's either something amiss, or something more.i cant really put it down in words. but somehow it made me feel slightly better. maybe its that issue again. but somehow its not really bothering me anymore, but instead i feel like im able to step out of it, like i just hit the 'refresh' button. guess i'm finally able to look reality in the eye, and give it a smile :)

ok time for hiphop!
(ughhsss and now there's another issue. damnnnnn. limei's so disgusted even by the thought of it. like seriously i cant believe i have such a friend.but i know i cant blame him for turning out this way. i wish i didnt know anything.but then again, maybe god wants me to play my role as a friend and guide him out of this mess. :/ i know we'll do this tgt, and everything will be resolved without unhappiness. someone please pray things dont turn ugly and we can still be friends. )

i turn to you

2009-07-18T12:53:00.005+08:00

TGIF!

I REALLY REALLY LOVE FRIDAYS !

firstly, its my no dance plus destress day! not that i dont like dancing, how can limei not like dancing? but its just that all my latenights are giving me pimple outbreaks, super bad dark circles, and i just really am not clear headed in the day, and not only the day lah, like even when im dancing. like on thurs there was ballet, and limei was soooo stupid can. she actually brought her new not broken into yet pointe shoes to class, and forgot to bring her toe pads! hurhur.... so the outcome was disastrous. i have like 5 blisters on each foot, and one of her toenails cracked into half. ughhsD: normal en pointe without teo pad can already kill, now its new pointe shoes somemore.. aiyohhhhhhh limei's memory is really failing her. grahhh and she cant seem to remember her barre work rahhh.... i should stop getting it confused with adv2 barre work.

ok so yesterday, elanor came over for sleepover! elanor's jiejie's bestie, and she's studying vet in australia now actually. i still rmb how i really wanted to be vet in primary school, cos i really wanted to be part of the animal planet! haha and how in primary school me and yanling are always so excited about the young zookeepers programmes on the zoo lol! anyway, i met yanling on wed on the bus while i was going for hiphop.she's still has skinny, but she's super tall now! and super pretty! miss my pri sch days ohwells:)

yepa so daddy whipped up a super yummilicious dinner:D good food!

elanor! she dyed her hair, and she looks so aussie now haha!

mummy and elanor!

dinner! egg and butter golden prawns! fruit salad fried pomfret! steamed silk tofu! and my favourite mushroom dish! haha dont know what its called, just one day i asked daddy to cook all 5 diff mushrooms tgt, and it turned so awesome:D

yeap so they played mahjong,but i went to bed early, cos limei had a very long day.

but before i went home that day! i went for...

FOOD HUNT WITH MEL!!! (part2)

after school, i went lepaking with victor, alvin and yuting first. then taoyee came and yuting went off, then kakiong came and joined us. the mocha frappe at cafe cartel is nice:) made up for my starbucks craving lol! so i hanged around and listened to the guys do their guy talk, and all that 'jeez in my pants( however jeez is spelt lol)' but i was really damnnn funny but sick also lah. see how limei gets polluted?

so mel came and we left and we went down to clarke quay instead cos its too late to go to the farm:) but nevermind we can always leave the farm to next time! haha its so interesting, how we can have an outing tgt to a farm lol! like how yuting totally agreed haha! it really takes someone who knows limei well enough to even think of bring her out to a farm. a farm is such a 'limei' kinda place hehe! but for now i still dont know which farm is it, but im still excited for our farm outing day to come:) yuting and i was saying how if it was a guy who would even think of that, it would mean that the guy really put in alot of thought into what is it that will really make me happy, and what is it that i really like, and know my character well enough:) but my conclusion is that, i dont need a guy when i have a friend like mel man hahaha! i dont think any guy would be able to meet limei's expectations with mel around her:P awwwww I LOVE MEL!

so first stop! the new barcook bakery at central mall! i still remember the first time mel brought me to the chinatown branch one and i tried their raisin bread. omg super good!

so we bought a bread, andenglish carrot cake! the bread's really soft.i wonder how they make it man. like its just the right amount of air in the bread, but its not so much air that the braed will collapse. super awesome.

mel and her bread!

then we went to muffins marvel to try thier muffins! its at cenbtral basement, reccomended by mel! their orange cornflake was sold out, so i tried her second favourite flavour, which is banana walnut.. and the real banana inside is just mmmmm... limei likes bananas hehe!

bananawalnut!

wheee mel eatinghappily:)

DIG IN!

and the carrot cake from barcook bakery! we went back like 3 times? until the people there could recognise us alredy haha!

and yes limei love english carrot cake! (haha seems like limei loves everything:P) but yes its one of my favourite cake. besides banana chocalate:) i rmb mel baked me a banana chocolate cake for my birthday last year, and fiona baked me carrot cake! 2 people that i really just cant live without:) SEE HOW MUCH THEY LOVE ME? WAHAHAHA i think i smell envy!:P

but the topping for this carrot cake was abit too creamy and cheesy. though the texture of cake was good. but i guess the topping makes a difference. the best topping i've tried so far is the carrot cakefrom the fullerton hotel!

andwe went back a third time, and melbought their mexi choc bread and the chicken one!

then we went around central shopping!!! weboth bought a new shirt for ten bucks only! i like the shirt mel chose for me! notice the friday became FINE DAY? thats cos the best day ofmy week now i friday!:) and i love her shirt too! and so we camwhored in the fitting room:P

my first green shirt i bought. i keep thinking i shouldnt wear gree cosof my dark skin tone. i think i'll look like a tree lol! but ok lah not so bad:) i like:) oh and mel's shirt says 'i'm born with a smile' fits her totally doesnt it? love her smile:)

then we talked for like an hour at the mrt stn. we kept saying ok 3 more trains, then we;ll leave, but i think more than 20 trains passed, and we talked for like an hour, and still didnt leave lol!we so should have just tlked and not shopped. we talked about many many things, and im glad. and i guess we're both happy for each other! i told her about how i was inspired by MR TEO SER LUCK who came to talk to us. and i'vedecided that yes i wil pursue my passion. its all about "HOW BADLY DO YOU WANT IT?" and if its my passion, i should be happy doing it and making sacrifices. and that i should keep myself in check. so limei will try to keep her cheerful self no matter how tired she is, because i dont want my friends to worry for me, THANK YOU FRIENDS:)

and we are seriously cool. our fav song currently is THE SHOW by LENKA.

i was humming it very softly cos its kinda my earworm now, then mel sang the next line out loud. AND I WAS LIKE OMG YOU KNOW THIS SONG TOO! then mel was like i love it! its just that kind of song that you listen to at the end of the day, and tell yourself, its not so bad:) we've really been through alot tgt i guess!

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

Slow it down
Make it stop
Or else my heart is going to pop
'Cause it's too much
Yeah, it's a lot
To be something I'm not

I'm a fool
Out of love
'Cause I just can't get enough

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

The sun is hot
In the sky
Just like a giant spotlight
The people follow the sign
And synchronize in time
It's a joke
Nobody knows
They've got a ticket to that show
Yeah

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I dont know where to go I can't do it alone

I've tried
And I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show
Just enjoy the show

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I dont know where to go I can't do it alone

I've tried
And I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

dum de dum
dudum de dum
Just enjoy the show
dum de dum
dudum de dum
Just enjoy the show

I want my money back
I want my money back
I want my money back
Just enjoy the show

standing in new light

2009-07-12T00:39:00.002+08:00

so today i overslept, and rushed down to SMU to meet shufen jingyuan and longchuan! when shufen called me at 930, i thought it was my alarm clock so i just hung up on her lol! sheesh i should stop oversleeping seriouslyD:

yeap so met them and we rechoreo-ed for national day!:) the girl's hiphop and hiphop choreo's done yay and we took like less than an hour. but limei thinks her brain juices for choreography is running dry eek! needs more exposure seriously. and i wish we could do more technical stuff for the modern (ps: contemp is not equals to lyrical, nor modern. i feel people keep using the word contemp very losely. :/ if you go search it up, you'll know its different. limei doesnt really like contemp alot. and its really rare that she doesnt like some kind of dance, other that popping lol. lyrical and modern is love:D) one, it'll be so much easy to choreo and much much prettier. arrghhhh if only the guys are forced to go for some technical training xP.

yeap then left halfway and rushed to school for RPROJ! although the boon lay palce was really uhh RURAL i would say, compared to the real REVIVAL thingy, and there were alot of chikopeks looking, it was still fun lah:) limei just wasted her whole saturday like that! ughhssss... but yeah its fun cos it totally brings back the nostalgia (surprisingly) of revival! and we really did a great job i think:)

I CANNOT DO MY CHEM REMEDIAL WORKSHEET:( like half of it i seriously dont know how to do. SCREW CHEM OK. SCREW IT. i need chem remedial yes i do. and im not procrastinating, but i really cannot do. what to do right? arrggggghhhhhh so freaking pissed off at myself. and i got so many other tutorials to do lah. screw it ok. im going to do it tmr. my brain is not working now.

someone scold limei, she so should have studied on friday, and not play it away. sucks lah, im always like that now. i can never follow through with all my decisions and with things i said i'll do. like focusing on studies, and.... and many other things lah aiyohhhh:/

so limei must constantly remind herself now. and she's got her dear mel to remind her too:) i hope this time round, i'll make it! yes limei you will, and you must! 29 more days to my promised deadline gogogo!

ok sleeping time. LIMEI'S TIRED:( veryveryvery. i think you can tell lol.

i hope i'll dream of chemistry really. and maybe math too:)
and of course....

looking forward to that day

end of the week!

2009-07-10T17:19:00.002+08:00

ok so i've unlocked my blog already :)
cos my sis keeps pestering me lol!

hmmm life's kinda different now:) a little bit lah haha. happy things and stressful things all tgt. seems like this week was really long,and really alot alot of things happened!

so start from monday! LIMEI'S FIRST HIPHOP CLASS !! heee:D
i finally started hiphop and joined regine's class, though my name's registered under bernice's class on wed at jurong west. and limei must thank regine, re'ann and aaron for teaching her the come back to me dance, right before class started! and my first hiphop class turned out to be super hiong! lol almost thought to myself, what the hell am i doing in the advanced class:P but in he end, we kept practising and finally got the choreo hahaha! and i like it:) limei knows everyone must be thinking she's crazy to take up hiphop now, esp everyone is studying realy hard and plus i have ballet and school dance as well:P but i guess joining hiphop would at least add some fun to my otherwise mundane and stressful life and make me look forward to mondays! so limei has no more monday blues anymore:D ballet used to be my destress outlet, but now that taking adv1 exam is adding on to the stress, i really need to take on something else man.

and then on wed! was limei's second hiphop class! and first time doing hiphop with baby!:) super fun, but i still made mistakes here and there for the choreo. and LIMEI LOVES GIRL'S HIPHOP!! and she loves liling jie's (still not used to calling her orange lol) choreo is super shiok to dance to. i always feel super good after doing girl's hiphop whee:) and i like how its girl's hiphop but the choreo suits girls and guys as well!

but so sad once CCA resumes, i dont know if i cancontinue on wednesdays anymore:( ohwells!

arghhh and i have super duper BLACK eyye bags and dark circles:(( need to sleep more,but got really no time luh. and i think my memory is seriously failing from the lack of sleep gosh. there's so many things to do, and i keep forgetting about them:(

anyway, i screwed my CTs really bad. the highest im getting so far is a D which is like super shitty. WAKE UP AND BUCK UP LIMEI!!! i should stop fumbling around unimportant things in life and get serious man. (unimportant things excludes dance btw:P DANCING IS IMPT HEH. victor keeps asking me to stop dancing lol!) and its super cute how jasse and yuting can memorise my schedules lol! friday's my only free day (explains why i blogged) pissshhhhh someone be my motivation to study, and study with me:(

:( and daddy's running a fever. hope its not H1N1 . and jasee got fever half way through school today as well. i really hope both of themrecovers asap!

and last night, my aunt, which is mummy's sister, passed away:(( can tell mummy's really sad. when she told me, i immediately thought of what if one day my sis left me:(and i could feel her pain i guess. plus the worse thing is that she's not even around to be with her for the last with days of her life, and mummy never got to say her last goodbye. i think the last time they met was like 4 or 5 years ago? :( i really think my mummy's very strong, and i guess thats how she raised me and my sister up as well. to be independent and strong. (in case you're wondering, my mum's side of the family are all in the philippines lol) limei really wants mummy to be alright, but i know its only normal for her to be feeling the pain. so all limei can do is give her a hug, and hope time would hurry heal her wounds.

mummy told me she made an overseas call to grandma and grandma was crying really bad. its so devastating to watch your own children go before you. grandma was hysterical, and i hope her health doesnt get affected too much by this. :(
rest in peace, auntie.

so dont wait. cherish the people around you, and tell your loved ones you love them before its too late. dont live in regrets.

I LOVE YOU MUMMY!
(my mummy reads my blog btw lol)

think i need a sunrise

2009-07-06T14:37:00.002+08:00

sometimes if only everything was much simpler and easier.
like the cyclic pattern of a sunrise and sunset.

i like this photo(:
should hurry get a DSLR man

if it's meant to be, it'll be

2009-07-04T13:02:00.003+08:00

dance farewell's this sun! cant wait:)

we initially wanted to make everything a really huge surprise, but yeah the big revelation's out already. ohwells!

ystd the exco metup and we had like a 4 hour meeting or smth? lol then in the end it was only me and shu fen and long chuan left! hahaha and omg it was so funny how we talked about so many things when trying to come up with a crossword puzzle with names lol! i love them!!! but no more games already, so we dont need to use the crossword anymore hahaha:P and then we walked around looking for materials and stuff at bugis. we actually spent 1.5 hours walking around art friend. crazy right, and our legs got so sore after that. and i think there's some problem with my left thighbone joint. it keeps getting sore and i cant put my weight on it properly :/ but ohwells, guess its norm for the injury-prone limei!:P

and then met with my hot babes and hunks! and damn stupid i actually remembered wrongly. that nihon mura is at novena not marina lol! and the one at marina is sakae.. heh paiseh paiseh! so yeah in the end ate swensens instead! yumyums, i like the salad! finally ate what i've been craving for for a really long time(: limei's a happy girl !

i like how good food works on me. its therapy(: luckily limei was brought up by her parents to appreciate good food. and of course criticise when its not heh:P

limei really hope farewell turns out fine!

and limei's okay. you dont have to try so hard anymore. just go now, and do what you should instead. thank you, really. for limei has learnt to love.

and "if it's meant to be, it'll be"(:

Friday night beneath the stars,
in a field behind your yard,
you and I are paintin' pictures in the sky.
And sometimes we don't say a thing;
just listen to the crickets sing.
Everything I need is right here by my side.
And I know everything about you
I don't wanna live without you.

I'm only up when you're not down.
Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground.
It's like no matter what I do.
Well you drive me crazy half the time;
the other half I'm only trying to let you know that what I feel is true.
And I'm only me when I'm with you.

Just a small town boy and girl
livin' in a crazy world.
Tryin' to figure out what is and isn't true.
And I don't try to hide my tears.
The secrets or my deepest fears.
Through it all nobody gets me like you do.
And you know everything about me.
You say that you can't live without me.

When I'm with anybody else
it's so hard to be myself.
Only you can tell.

That I'm only up when you're not down.
Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground.
It's like no matter what I do.
Well you drive me crazy half the time;
the other half I'm only trying to let you know that what I feel is true.
And I'm only me
Who I wanna be
Well, I'm only me when I'm with you
With you
Uh huh
Yeah

i'm only me when i'm with you ~ taylor swift.
earworms:D

brought me back to life

2009-07-03T00:32:00.002+08:00

CTs ARE OVER:D

hahaha yess feel the joy in my words:P

though i can very surely say i wont have a single A or Bs, limei's just glad its all over:) This week isnt so hard to get by, is it limei? yeaps it isn't:)thankfully!

must thank my GAY BAO joedi! for sms-ing me everyday to wish me luck and jiayous! hahaha thanks girl:)

today was supposed to go cycling with clan, then in the end i suddenly rmb i have ballet at night, after not having it for like 2 weeksD: so yeah instead went to watch movie with lepak gang then went for dance! haha:) TRANSFORMERS was really cool.but heh, im such a typical girl who doesnt fancy robots and action films so ohwells! but yes it was worth watching super hot megan fox hehe! i was so tired, and felt like sleeping at some parts of the movie heh:P so luckily there were popcorns and nachos. so limei kept munching munching and munching aiyohhhhh:/

so went for ballet!
felt like i havent squeezed into my leotard for a reaaaalllly long time! limei really needs to lose weight if she wants to do well for her exams man! hmmmm i think going back to gym might help?:) and i really need my back muscles back omg. how to lift elephant thighs and hold them above 90degrees like that!D:

oh and had a short talk with ms foo after ballet. or rather i didnt say much, but just listened on. and limei has finally decided that she will go for her ADVANCED 1 majors this year:) filled up the exam form today. so yeah there's no more indecisiveness (think limei's learnt her lesson!),and no more turning back. just 100% determination,and committment. TOP PRIORITY that means. hmm but this time my expectations are lowered by super alot. just a merit would be a reward already, cos its only 2 months to exams, and i feel like i can just barely remember my work:( and there's still so many thingsto learn! so far we;ve only done barre waork, andcentre work till pirouettes. still got allegro, pointe and DANCE! D: i seriously need to sew my pointe shoes ribbon and break into them :/ eeks sounds like a difficult task to choing for A1 in 2 months!

but at least i feel motivated . cos today ms foo told me i got 89marks for my grade8 ballet exam:) hmm though its not the 90 marks and above i aimed for. at least its a distinction and so limei's thankful and satisfied! and yess finally a clean clean clean record of distinctions for all my ballet graded exams! and by far i only got a stupid merit for intermediate ohwells! i think there's a trend going on for my major exams lol! hopefully A1 will not follow the lousy trend. limei really wants to do well, please!

so this means i will have to turn down other school perf and stuff, cos i must focus and cannot miss classes! :( sighhhhhhh please excuse limei?

hmm and yeah ms foo let us think about it and consider our commitements before we filled the form. but yeah time waits for no man, and nothing waits for limei. and ms foo was like: " consider school, life, family, friends,other dance, life, and boyfriend." so yeah sacrifices must be made and will be. so yeah, friends, forgive limei for missing out on outings and stuff yeah? i promise i'll make it up after everything!limei's back to no life again. so can dont bother asking her about food, movies, dates or anything close to leisure activities lol!

and after class miss foo said something, that really got me to straighten my back up and listen.
"when you're an emotional person, you get easily defeated. especially us women." i hope she dances again. and yeah sometimes in life, you've got to keep together and stay strong.

cant wait to start hiphop! wheeeeee dance dance dance and more dance:D but yeah save money and lose weight too! tues before ballet is gyming session!

oh and btw.
limei hates herself for being so softhearted. so she'll toughen up! and what baby said makes alot of sense. i wouldnt want to be in her shoes, no never, until it changes,which would be a miracle. i wonder how she takes all these. either she's blind, desperate, oblivious, or just too kind (yeah whatever). limei's LIMEI:) 'i got my standards ' quotes donnie!:P

till my body is dust

2009-06-28T18:05:00.002+08:00

ok so CTs are tmr. what am i doing here?

haha i think yeah i'll just fail lah. better than getting stressed up. life's not supposed to be lived that way:D

so yeap many people came asking limei and showing concern about the previous previous post. hmm thankyou each and everyone of you who tried to cheer me up, esp joedi! i loved your note haha it really made me laugh. and bern for listening to me! and jane too! and aaron's sis, priscilla who came over to ask me why i cried. and everyone else who asked me to sleep more hahaha!

hmmso yeah and for the rest of you who tried to ask me, but i didnt tell, LIMEI'S FINE NOW:) really.

and i know you cared, thats all that counts<3 although you didnt say much.

hmmm and so funny i've got people coming to ask me if i was talking about them. hahaha so dont worry you guys! LIMEI's not so mean lol!it was for a good friend of mine that doesnt know how to appreciate others as a friend. and so limei will heed the advice of her loved ones, and not stupidly get affected by people whom i care for, but only think of themselves.

after hearing what people who really care about limei has to say. she realises that she has been deluded to think that that person really cares for her as a friend. but no, that person has all talk and nothing else.

one of my friend said this that day when bern very funnily asked him " 你会照顾丽梅吗？",
"照顾这种东西不是用嘴巴讲的." hahaha yeaps and i totally agree that actions speak louder than words. thats when i suddenly realised that that person cared, but not anymore as a friend.

ohwells who needs that person anyway? when one door closes, another opens! limei will learn that she will care for her friends more now. not just by talk, but with her actions:) school starts tmr! so yeap i must get past this awful CT period,and start again once its over! i will try to do my homework, and work even harder for dance!i must not be like this again for promos. soyeap. i shall remain optimistic:) CTs are not everything in life!

WISH ME LUCK! i need lots of it:P

Here comes the bride!

2009-06-28T15:35:00.009+08:00

CONGRATULATIONS TO MR AND MRS TANG!<3
Ms Foo and Uncle Lance have finally tied the knot on friday, 260609 at the Fullerton Hotel:D

so on thurs, after prac, i went to stayover at bern's house cos we had to wake up super early the next day and rush to Ms Foo's uncle's house by 6! so yeap i had lots of fun having girl's talk, and doing girl's stuff with bern:D oh and before that in the morning, before prac, we went to KIMAGE to get our hair done tgt, in preparation for the wedding heh:) baby got her hair highlighted red! super cool ok! and i think she's the only person i know of that can highlight red and yet not look ah-lian hehe. and so limei got her hair straightened, as encouraged by baby and all the kimage staff, so funny lol! but all these hair services burnt a huge hole in my pocket ohwells! limei is sooooo broke D: but for the sake of making myself feel more confident and happy, i guess yeap its worth it!

staying over at baby's house and camwhoring before we slept:P

dont mess with the twins! grrrr... hahaha
dont we look fierce in our black rimmed specs that just screams "EDUCATED:)"

So yeap the next day we woke up at 4am! yes amazingly i managed to wake up and wake baby up too haha! and we got prepared to rush out of the house!

bern and i camwhoring in the taxi! limei totally loves camwhoring with her! so funnnn and the pics still looks super nice:P

the ultimate stage of camwhoring: UNGLAM IN A GLAM WAY:D

haha baby so pretty!

my fav!

and so its limei's first time being one of the jiemeis! and we got to buly the xiongdi! hahaha me, bern, dee, char, jenn, regine, donnie, and our DAJIE jacq! hahahaha 8 of us against the 4 xiongdis! so sadly, they were slightly late cos of the traffic jam. so before they could come in they all had to eat 2 chillipadis! super hot till one of them puked.oops:P then first station is bern and my station. the guys had to do diamond pushups and eat biscuit placed inteir diamonds without their chest touching the flooe. hahaha! so they failed and some of them cheated. and money money it was! but we took so long agrue-ing for the money. where's our 400 bucks!!!hahaha then i was charaes. damn stupid cos we actually know the word already. and we insistedwe dont. so the guys had to make us guess the words. and we guessed everything but that word. soin the end we could extort their money wakakakaka. and lastly, they had to eat bicuits with disguised wasabi, chilli padi, bitter gourd and lemon juice! and we served them 4 diff cups of water. one is saltwater, one vinegar, one chilli padi-soaked water, and one plain water haha! its sour, salty, bitter, and spicy all served:D and before the groom could go into ms foo's room, we made him sing to the wrong door. and the door just didnt open hahahaa.. then finally the door beside him opened and the groom finally got the bride wheeee!!!

so we followed them to unclelance's house for tea ceremony, then to Ms Foo's new house which is ultra super chich and pretty! and then back to ms foo's uncle's house:)

then its to the Fullerton Hotel for solemnization! but so sad i forgot to take picture with the wedding car!!!! guess what... its a ROLLS ROYCE!!!!!!!! super nice ok! wheeeeee rich rich ehh? the whole solemnization just got all the girls in the house screaming in their hearts " iwant to get married!!!!" hahahahaha. the couple are really reallysweet:)

then after that, we got ready for performance!!!!! and the wedding dinner:D

THE MASQUERADE ROMANCE OF LANCE AND LENA

the grade 8s! haha they all so cute

wheee chyna baobei!!!!! missed her lah. and i love her DSLR hehe:P

busy packing up in the room.

doing what im pretty good at! heh self praose:P hair styling for kelly:D

JOEDI THE BAO!

Nervously getting ready forthe performance. got super alot of people from the dance industry there! we had to do a good job:) and i think we did wheee

i must say that altought our music was screwed at the start, we still had the awesome chemistry to synchro our moves and gt everything right in the end! peronally i think our item was a success and it wouldnt have been possible without each and everyone of them. esp the hiphop guys cos since they're not that close to miss foo. and heh sorry limei will sometimes get hot tempered when she's stressed and when she has only so little time to get something out and stuff . and she's sorry she brought her bad mood to prac sometimes. thankyou for bearing with her! i had alot of fun hanging around with you guys, and talking toyou all, esp bern, made me feel alot better about alot of stuff!

limei's thankful she did this item in the end!<3

2nd March-in en pointe! me bern regine kelly!

in the jie meis' car!

JIEMEIs!!!! char jacq regine dee jenn me donnie bern

Solemnization: Sealed with a kiss<3

the suite in Fullerton Hotel!

THE BED!!!!:D

wheee i love their toilet

me pearl mabel limin rachel! in the holding area!

whee ballet gradedexams classmates unite! missed them alot! chanelle, me felicia edlyn cheryl

the EMCEE! JACKY haha!

Aaron! sis and bro:)

Yongda ex-partner!

Sean! partner!

THE HIPHOP GUYS! jacky, leon, sean, aaron, yongda!

AND THE GIRLS! regine, me edith bern re'ann

and the super duper sweet little girl priscilla!!! hahaha camwhoring during the dinner:) she's aaron'slittle sister!

Dajie Jacq! Li Mei! Yongda!

whee soon it'll be their turn heheheh:D

bern and i with MR AND MRS TANG!

BALLET TWINS! i love her ttm!

THE END!

let the sound of my heart ring out

2009-06-24T12:22:00.001+08:00

so last night, (or rather morning)
was a moment of truth for me.
there's nothing more to hide already:)

i'm finally able to be honest with myself. to say things i thought i'd never say. because i know it'd hurt and i know nothing good can possibly come out of what i say. but i said it anyway. because behind it all, i thought this is the best way to go about things right now. and cause there's no turning back. limei just hopes you'll understand, that it's harder for her than you think. too frank maybe, but limei has to tell herself to stop all this. she doesnt want you to be confused and most of all it wasnt easy for her to bear with what people have been saying. you just need to put yourself in my shoes for awhile. then maybe you'll see where i'm coming from.

limei has never felt for someone so strongly before. she didnt know what to do. so forgive her will you?

she just hopes everyone will be happy. she wants you to be happy too. she doesnt know if doing this will right now. but ultimately it will. limei know she's not of utmost importance to you, so it shouldnt be too bad for you i thought. you've gone so far ahead of me now, if you know that you're not coming back to take my hand and walk with me, then at least let me learn to move on.

you can scold limei for listening to others, and being so paranoid about what others think and say. but if she've followed her heart, she doesnt know what she'd do.

up till now, no matter how big a jerk you've been but didnt realise, you're still special to me. hahahaha:P

so i'm sorry i've disappointed you. it hurt me to hear that i've hurt you. i thought it wouldnt, but it did so much, i realise im not ready yet. sorry. and no you didnt get me and my perceptions of things wrong. just that, you didnt pay attention enough to know things have changed. i didnt like anyone then, it was easy for me to say things cos it all seemed so simple. so no matter how you try to ignore, its changed.

and when limei found another person that could touch her heart almost as much as you did, she was really happy. then she talked to you and it seemed you had to get so protective. thats when i realise, how your opinions mean alot to me, so much that i started to doubt if what i feel is true. so yeah if i ever get attached (which is like still looooooooooooonnnnnnnngggggg haha!) its a decision that i wont want to regret, so please rmb what i said and try to understand limei yeah?

alright! enough of that, limei's got better things to stress her out in life. like how she's totally gonna fail CTs lol! and miss foo's wedding's in 2 days! and i still need to get a pair of white heels. and im super broke lah. i need moneyyyyyyyyyy for dance! seems like studies has dropped to the bottom and dance is on top now ughs:P i cant stand it when im not good at what im expected to be at. and since im expected to be good in dancing more than studies, so yeah heh:P

and and and! i think im thankful that i had to do ms foo's wedding item. although it took up alot of time and all, i made new friendships and learnt alot of other hiphop stuff from the guys esp. oh and making lollipop bouquets from yongda haha! and how we all just spend time laughing and making it tgt:) and most of all, i spent alotalot of time with baby! yay cant wait to go cut our hair tgt on thurs:D

arghhh but limei's sick sick sick. i think it's from all the running under the rain. plus now my eys are all puffy from crying myself to sleep. so stupid lah. i will never do that again. limei loves her eyes and i think they're her only assets hehe :P:P:P

and last night baby told me something else too. wahhhhh as if i havent had enough. thanks man.

ohweeeeelllllsssssss! LIMEI'S GONNA TAKE LIFE ONE STEP AT A TIME. even if i fail cts, i think i'll just cry it off, bear with it and try again! whats impt is that we live each day happily no? you'll never get to relive yesterday. so limei will learn from her buddhist teachings,that in life there's no regret:)

2009-06-15T22:20:00.005+08:00

celebrated fathers day in advance with the whole family at pulau ubin on sunday:D
but it was a crappy day for me cos i was super duper tired from all the dancing and late night playing cards and talking with jiejie's friends who came over for sleepover the night before:) but it was greaat fun talking to them and they're really really nice!

and so yeap we went to 2 well-know temples to pray in ubin and then we ate seafood!!! yumyums:D and jiejie and i paid for it cos yeah fathers day treat:) but jiejie paid for it most cos she's working hehe so she got money and i dont :(

my awesome ah-ma!

the boat ride totally reminded me of class camp<3

the 2 cousins!

and the 2 sisters:D

and on fri, mummy took leave specially just to go shopping with meeeee:D and its like my belated birthday present:D bought lots of stuff! that totalled to almost 300?

i bought a top and a pair of pants from tangs, a new fila shoe bag, new pair of super eye-catching shiny red everlast, 2 new dresses from hula and co.! but besides all that most of all, is my new baby lenovo Y450 lappy:D:D:D yay!! got it at a super low price from the pc show:) and its really pretty! i like! then met up with jiejie and we went to pepper lunch for dinner then went home wheeeeeeee....

taking pictures in the fitting room:)

and so on sat, went for danzpeople new studio open house at POMO with regine, hanlin, yongda, and met john there! it was A LOT of dancing:) so much so that towards the end of it, i just dint feel like moving anymore. and i hate it when there's so many people and not enough space to dance, and i cant even see the instructor in front D: its superrr saturated. like every step i take, i'll step on someone's feet or someone will step on mine haha! ohwells but i was a great experience and i bought their shirt too:D

then after that, rushed down to HC to watch inspire! uhhh bellydancing aside, it was good:) and most of all RJ MODERN DANCE TOTALLY ROCKED! it was soooooo good and i think all of them really really did a great job and it was hard work paid of! my batchmates are PPOWEERRRRRRR:D

and yeah yesterday had prac and choreo-ing for miss foo's wedding. i think our choreo's not bad so far:D but we have to hurry up finish, esp the guys! but they're alredy trying very hard, so pats on their shoulder! and whats more its trying to assimilate jazz ballet and hiphop haha! me, bern, kelly, yongda, sean and aaron will make our item a blast. AND WE MUST:D

but first i really really need to lose weight. but i got no time to exercise:( have to studdyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

2009-06-09T15:06:00.003+08:00

JAZZ EXAM 2009

yay its finally over! and all the stress of not being able to finish teaching on time or learning my own exam work on time is finally over thank god:D and i really pray my kids will get good results. i dont think i'll get my honours with distinction this year though, cos i felt super unprepared and i totally sucked.:/ but aiyah nevermind:D

bought my everyday must-have chocolate for my kids too. and the maigical elves hopefully gave them some magic:D

wonder when will be the next time i'll be teaching them again. cos yeah im going to place my studies on top for these 2 years. or rather i'll try to. hmm but it was a great experince with them. and im glad to hear from their parents that they enjoyed the lessons and im really happy the parents are supportive of them doing jazz.

lets continue to jazz it up:D

2009-06-09T14:51:00.003+08:00

and on the actual day of my bday, i celebrated early in the morning with my family! and had a little steamboat:D then had to rush off for ballet and jazz. had jazz till like almost 1am. sighhh if not for the celebration on 6th june, see how i said my birthday is kinda miserable? but ohwells im thankful:) and i realise as we grow older, our birthdays are not that impt a day anymore. yeah its still special, but life goes on and we've got to prioritise what's impt i guess. and im perfectly fine with it:D thats why i no longer make a big fuss when i dont get to really enjoy the actual day of my bday. and thanks for all the bday wishes on fb and smses. i feel 'remembered' haha! although yeah fb notifies people. lol!

2009-06-09T13:55:00.005+08:00

DANCE FACTORY OFFICIAL LAUNCH!

on sat, i had a whole day filled of dance and more dance:) after that i just felt like joining every single dance class available:P heh im such a dancing addict. ohwells! but most imptly, i managed to meet up with the hiphoppers! havent seen them for like almost half a year? the last time was new year countdown, then no more!:/ and i got to catch up with many of them. and im glad there's no awkwardness and stuff. they're all really good dancers, and are some of the nicest people ever! and i've decided to join hiphop classes for real in july. keep saying i'll join since last year, but it never came true cos of alot of stuff. wanted to wait till like after sept when ballet ends for me. but i guess i cant wait anymore:) i'd better give it some priority before something crops up again:) and oh yah! congrats to JACKY! for the official launch of DF i hope df will get better in time to come and we'll have the best pool of dancers ever:D

THE DANCING ELITES!

regine! she's always like my big sister, and i can always confide in her:)
i love her:)

regine, zhixin and me!

and the sweetest part of the day came after DF open house ended! and i cannot thank bernice baby enough for everything she's done to make my otherwise miserable seventeenth bday a memorable one! she actually asked everyone if they wanted to go celebrate my bday after that. and thank you everyone who came for dinner! esp since im not thattt close to alot of them cos i havent gone for hiphop class. and even people like yongda, and marcus and jonathan (is that his name? :P) came although i've never really talked to them before lol! and halfway through, they really gave me a huge surprise when the whole of newyork new york staff and everyone started singing happy birthday super loudly till everyone turned around. and i was talking halfway then i got a shock ahaha! but i was really really touched and almost felt like crying. cos although they're not the bunch of people i always hang out with in my daily school life or after-school life, and i havent talked to some of them for almost half a year, they still celebrated my birthday for me:) thank you all of you! AND REALLY, THANK YOU BERNICE! you're the best ballet twin ever. and i love our photos:) it really meant alot to me, and although we've had tiffs and disagreements, i know we'll always have each other. love you baby!

THANK YOU BABY!

BALLET TWINS!:D

and remus and jasmine! we stopped to camwhore outside marie france bodyline while making our way to nyny:P

the crew! and jacky the big boss!

thank you all:D and re'ann and leon for the pretty bday present!

and the cake's super duper nice!

the lovely bithday surprise

I TURNED SEVENTEEN:D

2009-05-22T16:55:00.003+08:00

school's been crazy.

i got pimple break out + gained weight = i'm feeling the stress + i need to sleep more

time seems to be running out so fast! had inspire prac choreo ystd. super fun! and i love the choreo although im not doing the dance, it just feels nice to be able to contribute to it. friends adise me to just not put my hands into it, and make good se of the time to catch up with my work. but i cant resist the chance to choreo:P the sense of achievement after completing a whole choreo is too tempting! i really like doing lyrical stuff and esp with partner work! i got this whole crazy choreo idea in my head involving partners on stage doing lyrical haha! and i'd imagine it to be really beautiful, i wish i can do it someday:) shhhhh secret choreo heh:x

and im supposed to be doing work now, but ahwells. there's too many things swirling in my head:/

limei wish people would stop thinking otherwise of her. why must there always be more than meets the eye? all you want to know, you already know. i am whoever i am, and i cant be bothered to hide or care about what people want to think of me. or rather, i do care about what people think of me, but its really tiring to constantly try and be someone you're not isn't it? and just because you've heard the other person's side of the story, doesnt mean i dont have anything to say. sometimes i really feel like just coming clean with everything, but i really dont want things to be so complicated. so i keep resisting and retreating and making myself numb to feelings and forgetting about everything. and now that things have finally settled down, i am finally relieved. so this is all i can give and will give, until you really take this friendship seriously.

i still at ground zero. there's nothing between limei and whoever person other people thinks she's with. and no there's nothing between me and him rest assured. i can totally tell you all were referring to us. though no names mentioned, my intuitions are extremely accurate and sensitive, no doubt. i'm sorry if you think i was the one dragging things and i made it seem like there was something between us. no there isnt, and it wasnt me. so i hope its the happy ending and the beginning you wished for.
please let things go back to normal and you can stop looking at my direction all the time already.

PS the 'YOU's here refer to different people for different instances. dont have to try finding out who and or if its you. it doesnt matter anymore, dont think too much.

and the long talk ms foo gave me bern donnie and char last night till 12 was thought-invoking. do i really want to expand the jazz dance scene in singapore? i know that if i put my heart into it, i am definitely able to get something out of it. its time i choose the route i want to take. dance and studies can both be of the same priority. there's got to be some hierarchy. and jazz exam's in 2 weeks! i hope my kids can do very very well. they deserve to because they've been such awesome kids:D and ms foo and jacky and 2 really inspiring role models to me cos they both made it to uni, got a job with their degree before, and did weel in their occupation while teaching dance at the same time. then 6 or 7 years later, ms foo quit and became a full time teacher. and both of them are really happy now.

jacky's msn PM: very busy but HAPPY. i hope i can say that for myself next time.

anyway, DANCE FACTORY, a subsidiary of dancepointe, is finally opening! one step closer to jacky's vision of expanding the hiphop side of dancepointe. free workshops! see fb for details. anyway, if i want to do the same for jazz, he's going to have to be my case study haha!

life's not bad now though. busy, tired, stressed. but at least i dont have time for myself to think useless, unrealistic, impossible thoughts:D

2009-05-22T16:35:00.002+08:00

Vesak day monday was a half day of fun at sentosa with my class hotties:D
i love the beach haha. i totally should go live in florida or smth. ahwells singapore's beach is limited:( photo's on fb:) i want clan and hiphop gang and ballet babes beach outingggggg!!!!!
but i got a tanline, dont like.><

hmm next thing was...

DANCE NIGHT '09
centrestage!

i guess everything turned out fine in the end. although i was really drained that whole of last week, im really happy that it was successful. and i must really thank all those who came to support me:D esp fiona, chow, jingxian, jasse, yuting alvin, victor and andrew! thank you all for the flowers and balloons. my performance wouldnt have meant a thing without you all watching me.

fiona: "i feel so proud of you"
you probably dont remember you said it, but yes i do cos it meant so much to me. thank you dear! for always being there to support me and watching my every performance. from gym concert in rg, to gym competitions, and my year end dance concert, and the upcoming rproj, you never fail to be down. i wish i could always be there to watch all your comps too, and i am really sorry i couldnt make it down for your last trampoline gym comp which was really impt to you. but even though this is really late, i just want to say "i'm proud of you too fiona!" love you:D

and i think our batch has gotten stronger and closer after dance night. RJDANCE FTW<3

photos on fb! go tag:D

2009-05-09T22:56:00.003+08:00

hello! i need to update about happy things that happened in my life. and not all the emo-sounding thoughts i have :)

hmm okay did i mention my class buddies came over to my house? heee:D yuting, alvin, victor, weijie, and kakiong(but he didnt sleepover) came! had sleep over, think it was 2 weeks ago already? and yes i had alot alot of funnnnnn:) daddy allowed me to open and play with the new mahjong set. eeks fingers itching to play! and with this crazy bunch of friends, i had loads and loads of fun and laughters! it was really a break from all the school stuff.

(limei opens fridge for alvin while others are laughing and rollling on my kitchen floor about sick stuff)
limei: "ehh oh yah! you want to put your that thing inside or not?"
wahhhh then we couldnt stop laughing haha!:P
my parents must be thinking " my daughter's wild D:"

i like the effect of this pict!

the only 2 presentable photos i have. the rest are uhhh.. ehhhhh... heh:P rahhh lets sleepover again! and this time with jasse too then we can camwhoreeeeeeeeeeee:D and get loads of pics:D

and 4th may was peeta's bday!!!!!!:D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEETA!:D

celebrated during protected time at raja block!

AI-YAHH!!!

alvin smashed cke and cream on peeta's eyes!

and i heard it was worse in the toilet D: hahaha

hmm today although it's vesak day, i had dance from 9 to 5 plus! and although its super long hours, i was really having alot alot of fun! whee i want more more more of this kinda classes! cant wait to go for hiphop yo!

DANCE NIGHT'S GONNA BE GOOD!

esp the closing item:D:D:D

make sure yall go early and grab good seats whheeeee

and costume costumes! lots of money spent but for the love of it, heck lah:P

YU HUI! we're THE PAIR yo! chicago partners FTW!

THE HOTTEST GIRL AND THE CUTEST GUY IN SCHOOL OK!:P

short people are HAWT :D

the ac-sa jc wannabes blehhhhhh:P

FELICIA, MEL, ME SHUFEN!:D whee

and rproj photoshoot ystd was loads of fun! and i think next year i wanna be a stylist instead! wheeee like fulfil one of my chilhood aspirations:P

welcome to my life

2009-05-07T00:33:00.002+08:00

PW is pangsai lahhhhhhh....
ITS ALMOST 1 AM.
AND SLEEP IS SO NEAR YET SO FAR.

just felt like saying some stuff.

i think im starting to live in my own world already. everyone and everything else just doesnt seem to matter to me much anymore. except for friends that i cant live without. so go on and pick on me and be unhappy about how im this and im that. and yes im imperfect. so, i am not nice (enough for you). am i to blame? maybe.

school's engulfing me. and its come to a point whereby dancing is greatly insignificant in comparison. sometimes i ask myself if its still in me. and sometimes i wish i didnt try so hard to be smart. then maybe i could've ended up just pursueing dance and nothing else.

and i dont understand why people like to think that they're being nice and tolerant to people they have issues about by not confronting them. but i dont see how telling other people about it makes you someone less fake. if i dont like it, i say it. take it, learn from it, or leave it.

I NEED LIPO.urgent.

dance night's in a week! oh please.

keep dancing, where ever we go next

2009-04-26T13:43:00.005+08:00

sometimes i wonder why i can sill bring myself to be your friend.
even though i cant stand the things you do.
and sometimes i am totally disgusted.
and i'm not too sure if you know the meanings behind a friendship,
because sometimes you're just some selfish jerk.

you're like a puppet master,
tugging at people's heart strings.
controlling how they think and act towards you.
you bring joy, and you torment.
and when you're tired of playing,
you snip the strings off.
and they're lifeless.

and i'm thankfully for friends that really care about me. who are there to lend a istening ear.. friends who know me so well, they know almost instantly what can get me so down, and when i try to mask it, they wont prob further.

i need to come back to you.

i hate it when im not tough enough.
and when i have to cry in front of you

when i see you,
sometimes i try to hide
what i feel inside.

and i ate an apple that's 3 times the size of my fist.O.O i took 15 mins and my jaw hurts now :P

End of T2W5 and i woke up

2009-04-25T23:18:00.002+08:00

so many things have happened ever since i last blog. and i dont really have a specific thing to blog about in my head now, but i just thought its time to blog.

life hasn't been as smooth as i wanted it to be.
ROUGH AND TOUGH.

happy things:
GOLD WITH HONOURS FOR SYF:D wheeee super happy and according to tradition, im supposed to have a long thankyou post. but too tired and no time. so here goes. THANK YOU EVERYONE! ALL MY SENIORS, BATCHMATES, LAOSHI, AND MOST OF ALL FRIENDS WHO WISHED ME THE VERY BEST AND KEPT ME GOING:D love all of you!

my jazz teaching class officialy started! but i was really freaked at first cos i have zero idea of what to do for jazz kids. its not like ballet where know all my fundamentals super well and i know the progressions of the syllabus
but i havent gone through the whole jazz sylabus before! i so needed a template. but im quite amazed that my first class actually went very well! and i hope my kids can do well for exams in june. exams' on 8th june, exactly the day after my bday, so there goes one of my bday wish!

and im soooo looking forward to dance night! wheee. although the choreo's a tweeny too provocative, its what braodway is afterall. so yeaps:D fun fun fun!

not so good things:

ballet started.uhhhhhh dont really wanna say much. i suck. and it hurts.

failed almost all my tests. not like i've always really cared about studies, but yeah. it sucks that i suck so much.

and i cant go and watch monday's soccer match acj vs rj!!!!! grrrrrrr aamaks. nevermind next year lah.

and i got my wake up call this week.
im going to be more careful and work harder now.

2009-04-16T18:03:00.001+08:00

GOLD WITH HONOURS!!!

all you and i needed to know:D
we did it!

4days to SYF

2009-04-12T15:43:00.005+08:00

And yes its a sunday but we were back in school for dance prac!

i like how everyone's just working so hard for this one goal that all of us have in mind. and we want it so much that we're willing to do just about anything for it :) dance prac went quite well today i must say. its one of those rare practices that i actually didnt keep looking at the clock and wishing time would pass faster :P yays, i cant wait for SYF! today's like a preview kinda thing for us. cos we were in full costume and we had a small bunch of audiences! generally, we got quite good comments and that kinda gave us more confidence and motivation. i can finally feel myself dancing and not just doing movements and trying to tell a story. and i hope that feeling will be with me at least until the end of SYF. jiayous jiayous everyone:D

and yes 4 days it is! and i will get my life back:D (although i said the exact same thing for gym comp and ballet exam, and i know that truth is, it never does come back) i will be back in full blast:) (oh yeah i like that idea) full blast for studies, for dance night hamzah's choreo, for jazz gold medal, for ballet adv1 distinction :D (explains, why i never get my life back everytime eh? laughs at myself haha!)

and i think im going to flunk all my tests ugghs. no time no time! heck my studies until aft syf lah. oh and napfa's next week eeks! im going to run every monday morning at 8am with jo from tmr onwards:D yay yay!

and you can ignore my post and go on to the pictures from this point onwards.

RAHHHHHHHHHH
I FREAKING NEED TO LOSE WEIGH.
FAT FAT FAT FAT.
cannot stand myself
too fat for a ballet dancer. havent had ballet for a month and all the lipids are spilling everywhere in me D:
i've been giving in to good food and fun time temptations too often now.
one more week of heck-careness and no more!

KIMONO GIRLS! with becky weesian and kunhang<3

i like dancing. so so so much. you wont understand how much i love it. but yes i love it. more than anything else.

if i had one wish,

i would dance, and then forget about the world,

and you.

ohoh and,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY! I LOVE YOU:D

A BREAK

2009-04-10T14:09:00.002+08:00

happy good friday everyone!

slept for 13 hours straight last night! wheeeeee limei's a happy girl now:) and there's no dance prac today:P its not that i dont like dance prac, i like how we're getting better at it everytime we do. but getting home late and sleepless nights trying to do work is taking its toll on me. or rather, late nights trying to do work but end up falling asleep on my study table with work undone is D: D: D:

so today i've decided not to go out and play and have fun, but instead finish up the tonnes of work i have. plus study for bio, chem and econs tests which so happen to fall on the same day--next friday.

school's fine. but focusing is hard. i hate myself for that.

people tell me im losing myself though :( or i could tell they meant it that way.but its really not that complicated whattt....

and rumours are called rumours for a reason. its not true. dont speculate anymore.

and they broke up.
all the talk about your love is strong enough to last you through. im sorry it didnt work out. she's tired of it, a change of heart, which you cant turn back. let go, keep the memories, move on. life's like this.

and his rejection got him down. she cried too. everyone thinks he's the only one hurting. and she said he's a nice guy. really nice. but he deserves better. maybe its just not time.

he broke her heart before. she cried over him. she said she'll erase him from then on. she told almost everyone how he'd been such a jerk. but now she's back on again. she's swooning over him. and now she say he's actually the nicest guy ever. oh yeah? he's nice to all the girls he can get out there. girl, you're just one of them. she's blinded by love, charmed by him. its too late already. when she wakes up, her heart'll be broken to pieces. looking at her, makes me think twice, thrice and a million times over about falling in love. it gets you up with cuts and bruises, and scars that last.

and if you're thinking they're about the same people or matter. its not. how interesting life's been. it got me thinking. a little too much maybe. but at least i thought about it.

2009-04-05T10:13:00.005+08:00

IM FINALLY BLOGGING AGAIN!

school's been so busy that i always to tired to go on msn or blog. although i have tonnes of work calling for me, i really need a break right now. so yep here i am.

DANCE CAMP!
i had loads of fun with my fellow dancers and im glad dance camp went smoothly:D after 3 months, im finally settling down and getting used to my 'new' life. and i love my batchmates:D we're a bunch of crazy fun-loving people! SYF is next wednesday! yikes, and lao shi havent been able to come for pracs:( her mum passed away a few days ago :( i really hope laoshi's ok man. can imagine all the stress she's facing with so many school's syf coming up, and then now this. i wouldnt be able to take it if i were to be in her shoes. but i'm sure we'll still do fine, cos raffles modern dance is made up of a bunch of super talented people:D heeeee JIAYOUS JIAYOUS! 10 days to SYF!

and we chopped our hair off together for SYF:O my hair's super duper screwed. and mel, kunhang, alethea and i decided to cut bangs once last time together. we figured that we're probably never ever gonna cut bangs anymore in our entire lifetime cos we'd be too old to do that:P so we took the risk and chopped our fringes off as well. and we're glad it didnt turn out too bad:D but my daddy says i loook like so pri sch kid ahwells..... but wahhh i got super no patience to take care of my hair one. its always nice after i just cut my hair, then a few weeks later, everthing starts to go hay-wired lol!

and ballet and jazz starts this week D: and all the tests plus napfa's this weekD: i can already see myself stressing out. but i'll be fine:) yes i will be. I MUST. oh plus juggling dance night pracs and jazz exam teaching schedule. hohohoho good luck limei.

jasselyn, cassandra, yuting, me and rachel! after pe in dance studio:D

before dance camp, i procrastinated and went to RI's jamming place with ka kiong victor and wei jie! wheee i got talented classmates ok!

ka kiong playing and weijie singing! :D

victor and his cool elctronic guitar! and i cannot play the drums for nuts i have pyscho-motor problem>.<

heee kakiong looks so serious!

pro pro pianist!

and then its JOLENE's BIRTHDAY!!!!! HAAPY BIRHTDAY LOVE!

jing yuan jiayan and i got cheese cream on her face:D

me chopping my hair off

mel and i!

KUN HANG!!!! she's super super pretty and she looks super sweet in her bangs dont you think?

yay!

i look fat in my new hair -do eeeks im never letting my hair down ever>.<

kun hang and i trying to see how our pony tails look like!

HELLO BANGS.

2009-03-21T10:10:00.002+08:00

2 more days 2 more days!

unprepared.

and of all times, im sick now. i swear its a curse ok. something must happen for all my ballet exams. either fever, flu, sprain, migraine or gastric. arghhhhhhhhhh............. screw you. whoever the you is. i shall go to the gym to run off the sucky lifeless feeling im getting right now. i think the lack of exercise is getting to me :/

and im utterly slowwww at completing my homework. what ever happened to efficiency? D: FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS. limei shall not let anyone or anything affect her.

PRIORITISE.

DANCE AND STUDIES. fullstop.
please.

and i found this supeerrrrrrr cute pict in my phone while uploading photos:D

its when i've finally realised that i've stopped doing the things i used to do as a kid. it reminded me of how we used to make toys R us and kiddy palace part of our itinery. how we'll play and talk about our ideal future, and then leave the place feeling satisfied and happy although we didnt buy anything. hahaha... ahhhh i miss childhood:D

i miss dreaming about the future.

2009-03-21T09:56:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JING YUAN!

dance prac ended at 6 plus ystd. then jo, shu fen, aly, lynn, charles, chu yong and i rushed down to jing yuan's house to PARTYYYYYYYY! and the food was yum yums! super duper good can, we just couldnt stop eating hahaha! becky, wee sian and i all have ballet exams coming up, but we're like aiyah fine whatever, just eat cos we were so starved from dance prac. and Jing yuan finally did his womanizer dance hahaha... DIVAAAAAA :P not bad for a guy :)

BIRTHDAY BOY!

yummy good food:D

then at 10 most of us had to leave and i went home with chu yong. got home only at like 11.30 D: super tired.

2009-03-19T22:36:00.002+08:00

and for awhile,
my heart skipped a beat and stopped

D: D: D:

i didnt see it coming. really.
i dont know what to think. confusing.

tmr's going to be a longgggggg day.

2009-03-19T08:52:00.002+08:00

i suck at muggin nowD:
yesterday's attempt to mug was utter failure. so was the day before.
but ohwells at least i had fun and i didnt feel like i wasted my time away:) so i'm not thattttt mad at myself.

thought i'd have some time to myself studying in school after dance prac. i ended up falling asleep while studying D: so instead i met up with wei jie and watched MARLEY AND ME! wanted to drag alvin down, but failed hahaha:P it was quite a nice show. i thought i'll never get to watch it anymore since im missing out on friday's clan outing cos of dance prac. rahhhhhhh i want a dog too! miss my jack russell terrier man.... but neverminds i'll be able to get my yorkshire terrier in another 4 years as promised by my mummy:D ok yeah 4 years seem long, but ohwells:D:D

then went for ballet till 10.3o.

wednesday morning, i woke up and ballet it was again. wow my life is soooo interestingD:
miss foo came late so i helped to teach her grade ones for awhile. their class is really good! and they seem so confident and prepared for exam. chin up and head high, they know their work so well that all i had to do was play the music and correct their posture. maybe as we grow older, expectations, uncertainty and insecurity gets to us, too much, we forgot about "just dance".

then i decided to go over to starbucks at jp to mug. although all i got to complete was my bio mcq, it was a really happy day for me!

firstly, i drank starbucks mocha frappucino! its been so long since i last drank it, my favourite comfort drink. i like how i can spend time with myself alone at starbucks and not feel bored or lonely:D

then bernice baby came over to meet me. we did alot of catching up. and i'm really glad we did. i hope she'll seriously reconsider all the decisions she's made:/ maybe we're too used to having each other around all the time, or maybe its just me. but i cant imagine going for all the coaching classes without her. im already dreading that one adv class im having each week, i can already see my life getting sucked out of me with adv classes 3 to 4 times a week starting in april, whats more when its without her:/

but besides that part, im really glad i have her to talk to about my other problems. thanks baby, i will always remember what you tell me. what's most important is that we're happy:)

then wei jie came over to meet me cos we both needed to get some stuff from jp. and i finally bought jiejie's skirt for her finance presentation on friday! good luck and jiayous jie:D i know you'll be fine! but she insists the skirt's too short. i find it ok leh. hahas!

and i think my reluctantness of going home is getting from bad to worse D: i mean there's nothing wrong at home, i love my bed, i love my house, everythings fine, but i cant pin point why i dont feel like going home. i never felt like this until these few days. i'm tired, but i dont feel any urge to go home and just slump on my bed :O

so i stayed out till 10 plus. then walked home.

and to you, sorry for making you get home so late even though you're sick :P and thank you for being there to hear me out and just wasting time away at kiddy palace and fairprice and playground bench doing nothing

2009-03-16T21:29:00.003+08:00

if my gym juniors ever happen to stumble upon my blog,

jiayousssssss all of you!
33 more days to comp!
i know its been getting harder each year ever since we got kicked out of the ccab gym, but still, HANG IN THERE!
even if it seems like everything sucks now, you still have one more month! i believe if you put your heart and soul into it, one month can make a lot of difference. your seniors have all moved on, and left our legacy behind, so its now in your hands.
its your turn to live the legacy.
and even if the new laoshi is such a b****, what matters most is that you guys stay strong and stay close. dont lose that motivation, that confidence, that faith, that hope.
you guys are really tough, so remember that yeah? even smelly dirty gym mats, hard tiled non-sprung floor and no-space potong pasir cc cant bring us down.
so dont ever let anyone bring you down yeah?
be happy.
because the judges too, can feel the joy in your routine.

went back to watch their gym training at potong pasir with hazel mel and pauline today.
one word: NOSTALGIA
the short walk passing my favourite pancake stall and old-old-uncle-confectionery and soybean cafe brings back fond memories.
today i find myself actually missing it. I ACTUALLY MISS GYM gosh laughs at myself. then on my long way home on the mrt from potong pasir, i thought about it. i realise that i actually like doing the routines, and i enjoy every single second on the competition arena performing and impressing. but then thats only like 2 min and 30 sec out of 365 days. which is how training became such a toturous and numbing thing. i still love the sport afterall i guess, but training.. uhh no thanks haha!

i ate my favourite potong pasir pancake today! but its not the same auntie anymore, so there isnt banana chocolate pancake:/ but i still got to eat my favourite apple pie from old-old-uncle-confectionery! one of the most delicious and affordable apple pie i've ever eaten. YUMS:D

Rhythmic Gymnastics is such a beautiful sport.

2009-03-14T15:05:00.002+08:00

10S03B CLASS OUTING!!!!!!

supposed to meet at 9 at pasir ris mrt, but in the end everyone was late together haha! so i met with weijie and trained down. and met up with jasselyn, alvin, yuting, ben goh, jun hao, and shu yan! ka kiong woke up late, but he still came in the end:D we bought macs over to pasir ris park and ate our breakfast there.

CYCLING!!!!
we paid for the 2 hours one although we knew the rain was coming. haha the rain cant dampen our spirits man. lol cos we have RAIN STOP (yuting) HAHAHA! so we ended up playing at the playground and super alot of funny things happened haha! i like how we play like little kids! and i got some videos of the funny incidents, go check it out on facebook! but some of them ( like alvin's 180 degree flip on the flying fox) is dangerous, please do not try it haha!

so after playing for a long long time, we camwhored and decided to cycle somemore in the rain:D

lunched at MR CHICKEN RICE at downtown! not bad :D

POOL!!!!
i still suck at it lol! and i think our class guys are all super pro at it leh! especially victor! and they tried teaching me but still its epic failure lah haha! and yu ting and jasselyn's not bad too! so most of the time i just too lots of pictures of them playing! got bored and went over to play daytona at the arcade haha!

so after pool, we dragged everyone along to take NEOPRINTTTSSSSS!!!!!! haha ka kiong say he never take before so we deicided to do it although it was an ugly day for me haha ohwells:P oh did i mention that his class bday present is a comb and hair wax? hahaha! purposely suan him cos he's going to cut his hair till super short cos of soccer already. and then we camwhored even more inside the neoprint booth lol!

DINNER TIME AT JUST ACIA!!!!

bought kaka a small cake and sang him a bday song. MY CLASS PEOPLE LOVES PLAYING WITH THEIR FOOD! damn funny how weijie still ate his rice despite it being stained with strawberry ice cream lol! then jasse and jun hao had to leave and ka kiong and i went to bring simin over from the mrt stn. although it was a really tiring day, i didnt feel like going home so we stayed at just acia and kept eating the ice cream and drinking cos it was free flow haha! yes, damn cheapo i know but whatever luh haha, we're cool like that:D then weijie invented some farney water game lol! then it was damn funny cos alvin got tricked into this concoction of ice cream plus drinks that simin made and the best part was there was a tiny part of his poker card's box in it and he ate it and spat it out. super duper gross, but all of us just keopt laughing and couldnt stop. and i was at my max lah! damn funny cos alvin laughed to the max as well! since the game was about drinking water, of course i had a great urge to pee after laughing! but then i dont have 'jack' which is the toilet card lol! wahhhh super toturing

they say, laughter is the best medicine:D i really felt so much better after that. havent laughed so much in ages!

then finally at 10pm++, we made our way home slowly. trained with kaka, simin and weijie:D

once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY KA KIONG!!!!!

thank god for such an awesome bunch of people in my class! but i hope more people can make it to the next class outing! and i'll be over the moon if the WHOLE CLASS comes.

2009-03-12T22:44:00.004+08:00

LAST DAY OF TERM ONE IN JC!

school's been fine so far i guess? or at least i'd like to think so:)

cryst!
had a medicine talk by Dr John Parrish at Hodge Logde today and i met cryst there1 only jun hao and i went from our class. and im glad i did some catching up with cryst:D

then it was break time! and Mr Tan, our super adorable math tutor who turns red super easily joined us at our table!

YAY! 10S03B IS SOOOO ADORABLE!

KA KA! haha i decided to take a photo of him in school with his hair for the last time. the whole soccer team's going to cut like level 1 on saturday!

Alvin the Ahmud being unglam lol!

ORH HOR..... weijie why you peek at jasselyn sms-ing ah?

CHERYL!

ALVIN (and) THE CHIPMONK!

Yu Ting and Jasselyn!

Jun Hao and Ivan!

our math teacher always turns red lol!

Then we went for math tutorial tgt hahaha! and our Mr Tan loves HEBE from SHE! hahaha! she's on his desktop picture man. oh and he told us he's going to cambridge uni to study math! he's super smart can. and i like how he teaches man:D

Then after PE, few of us hung out after school and fooled round at Raja Block:D

i am currently very excited for tmr's class outing! although there isnt an itinery. we're cool like that:D

Then Andrew came over and i took pictures with him too! cos it'll be the last day i'll see him in his hair haha! pity the soccer players mannn... hahaha but its like a prelude to NS:P

Then i met up with Fiona!!!!! :D

super happy ok. i really miss having her around. and at around 5 plus, we left school and went for dinner at my favourite tiong bahru market! and we talked about almost everything. i feel so much better now after pouring out everything in my heart.

" just remember not to think that you're being deprived of anything in life, because you weren't entitled to anything in the first place."

no matter how hard life goes, or how all the crap about chasing your dream goes, we must be thankful for what we already have today ok?

and i'm thankful i have you. thanks so much dear:D

爱和被爱都是幸福的.

keep faith and be happy k?

oh and i've decided not to blog so often anymore. and i will change my lifestlye from term 2 onwards. i must sleep before 12 every night! look what late nights did to me and my eye bags D: i look ughhssss in all the photos today yucks.

2009-03-12T21:36:00.005+08:00

saturday, 7th march!

this is almost a week overdue, but i promised i'll post pictures, so here goes!
had dance prac in the morn, then bathed and changed in school with jo and set of to Plaza Sing to support DANCEWORKS! hmmm this year's competition wasnt very eye opening, but RJ STREETZ TOTALLY ROCKED THE STAGE!!!!!! they were really really awesome:D

then went aroung PS and met BECKY! so the very tired jo and i decided to go over to Just Acia for early dinner and to rest and waited for time to pass. and we camwhored super alot!!!!!:D

me, jo, becky

then becky left for RG homecoming and jo and i continued muching and munching! hahaha

and we talked about many many things. i havent had so much laughter for such a long time! and we just kept camwhoring and laughing at ourselves.

then at around 7 plus, we met up with mel and charles and went over to the STAMFORD ARTS CENTRE to watch a performance by laoshi's company Frontier Danceland. and leia performed in it! i love watching how she dances. The strength and the sharpness in her movements. the "stage" wasnt exactly a stage, more like a black box studio yeah. and there's only like 8 dancers? and with minimal music. yet without music, the dancers were still able to coordinate their movements through each other's breathing. this is what i call awareness while dancing. you can tell that there's a common understanding between all the dancers. abstract and really "modern-ish", i like how the dance leaves you to interpret the message behind each dance for yourself:D

BEG YOUR PARDON?

jolene, me, mel!

the cool cool studio

and dancer really just means camwhore haha!

charles, mel and i!

uhh... i just dont feel like embarking on my reflections on BEG YOUR PARDON D: D: D:

dance isnt something you can scribble about.

its something you feel inside and cant get out.

2009-03-08T00:05:00.004+08:00

FOOD HUNT WITH MEL!!!!

wanted to go back to rg and watch our juniors train cos comp's coming real soon! but then training was cancelled suddenly. so mel and i decided that since we are out together, might as well fulfil our long awaited MAKAN SPREE FOOD HUNT! so we went down to chinatown!:D and i cant explain how happy it is for me. i guess few will get what i mean, but yeahhhhh.....
:D:D:D

FIRST STOP: D24 DURIAN PANCAKE! :D
i give 4 stars! the pancake wasnt that special. but i must say their durian is of good quality. not too sweet that it tastes "heaty", and it doesnt leave too much of a durian smelly aftertaste. :D

SECOND STOP: ONION BUN FROM BACKSTUBE!

doesnt really taste like onion at all. 3.5 stars. their muffins and sausages looked much tastier. but this one's mel recommnded and cheaper haha! but its really good for a bun!

then we went down to my trishaw food centre place! dont know whats its name though. and we hunted down my childhood YAM CAKE STALL! the stall owners are like 60 plus 70 years old already. and their yam cake's really special! one of a kind i must say. and a 5 star rating is not enough for it. but the sad part is that it only opens at 5pm. so we didnt get to eat it:/ but ohwells we'll be back. and can you imagine how much business they actually get?!

and there's so many good food there, i wanted to eat from every single stall i passed!

we saw this cool popiah stall! and was amazed at how the uncle makes popiah skin! super thin and delicious.! so we bought one to share. 5 stars! officially the best popiah in limei's popiah eating history ahahaha. and a bowl of black sesame paste! only 2 stars, passable.

THE COOL GERMAN BREAD SHOP! where we bought our onion buns from.

LAST STOP: AH BALLING PEANUT SOUP!

4.5 stars! smooth and silky are the tang yuans, or aka dumplings:D. the peanut soup had real fresh peanuts in them, and the fillings were of the right sweetness! super duper good!

we ordered, black sesame and peanut fillings:D

then mel had to leave. i went back to school! helped out with hair and makeup for the drama feste people! then watched with derwin, barry and andrew! i think BW IS AWESOMEEEEE!!!!!!!!!:D SHIMIN AND SAGAR ARE TALENTED ACTORS, nad they're in my og! therefore, BWTEN IS AWESOME:D

although we didnt win df. i still think the df people did a really really great job! and alot of people think that BW would win one of the top 3 spots. but thats just the way for arts i guess. like how dance is. BW WON MY HEART:D

2009-03-07T23:24:00.003+08:00

CLASSS CAMP!
on the 2nd and 3rd march, 10S03B had a blast at pulau ubin's npcc camp! hahaha!loads of fun and laughter shared! our burnt yet still yummy noodles which got cooked just in time before the rain poured. sleeping time was hilarious! almost all 20 of us squeezed into on basha cos the other got wet in the rain. and up at 3am in the morning, alvin was still singing, but i somehow managed to fall asleep beside him haha! but he made the other classes feel like teaarng our bsha down lol! low rope elments taught us how to work with each other:D AND WE TOTALLY OWNED THE OTHER CLASS FOR KAYAKING! hahaha we play everywhere we go. we even played the squeeze-squeeze murderer game in the sea while waiting for the other class to return hohohoho.

GAY BOY AND GAY BAG.

on the boat to ubin!

me, jun hao, yu ting, wei jie

and the 1 hr plus trek to the camp site! and we walked, talked, sang and got to know one another much more!

we just kept on going!

on the way back!:D

me, alvin, yuting!

10S03B <3

and the not so good part is that we missed so many lessons D: i need a rewind ughhhsssss... not knowing whats going on during lectures is a very bad thing. and its snowballing sighhhhh

2009-03-01T20:55:00.003+08:00

Exam dates are out!!!!!!

23 MARCH, 9.30.

so now im counting down officially! 23 more days to go... i'm like the first group of the whole exam period ughhhhssss..

and i cant go for extra coahing class on wednesday cos i only end dance in school at like 8.30.. sighhhh how to reach there by 9? then by the time i end ballet, it'll be like 11 D: so now i have lesser classes than the rest. this means less time, lesser practice. ohwells....

i've only finished learning the entire syllabus today. and i really hope my brain remembers every single detail. its like all my other friends who are doing g8 this year under another teacher have completed their syllabus in jan. i feel like time's running out, but there's really nothing i can do :/
and i'm doing all the difficult dances in the syllabus which kinda sucks. i really dont want to do mazurka.. i just want my distinction. i dont understand. im doing waltz, im doing dramatic, im doing mazurka, and im the first person, how bad can it get? just because im doing advance, doesnt mean i think g8 is peanuts. i still feel pressured to do well. and i dont care about all the crap on challenging my limits, cos i dont think exam's meant to be used as an experiment. and im already pushing myself for advance.

i just hope i dont break my clean record of distinctionsD: and it really doesnt help when i always get to class feeling tired and drained.

but today i finally went for advance class! and think bernice baby is the only person that will dream of me during her afternoon nap just because i told her im finally able to make it for advance class! hahaha! she's so sweet. and i love how we did some catching up while going home. and she's a really really good girl, and i hope shi quan will cherish her even more than ever.

and regine just told me that leia's actually in laoshi's dance company, Frontier Danceland! and shes' performing in Beg Your Pardon as well! haha cant wait to watch her on 7th march:D

i think im super unfit now. i was actually tired during adv class while we were doing crunches. suckssss.....

i really dont like lipids.
dont like them at all.

2009-02-28T21:13:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FIONA!!!!!!
she's 19 4 and one quater years old now!

it was super funny cos we left the cake with the western food uncle. and then when we brought fiona over to buy food, uncle forgot about the cake. so he really thought i was ordering! and when i said i want french toast, he told me no more french toast, want frech fries instead?/ then i was like arrghhhhh... then the rest of clan were hiding behind the boards and they broke out laughing hahahaha! but ohwells.... it was still really nice of the uncle though:D

i hope fiona will always be happy:D

Fiona, making her wishes! May god bless her!

and she says... secondly.....

HEHHHH the very naughty master piece of mine :P but its a really nice picture right?

I LOVE YOU LOADS FIONA!

thanks for always being there for me.

to listen to all my whines and complains.

for understanding me when i do stupid stuff like over commiting myself, and doing things for the sake of doing it even though i might not be happy.

And thank you for being a true friend who will stand by me no mater what, and will chide me to my senses for my own good haha:P

And for knowing me inside out.

i miss having you sitting behind me in class D: love you girl!

2009-02-28T20:33:00.004+08:00

Had class lunch on Thursdayand we all got drenched in the rainD:
celebrated Cassandra and Rachel's Birthday! :D
then it was back to school for some of us for Operation Smile. i feel excited to get everything started and busy heee:P

alvin the ahmud!

vitor, junhao, cassandra and kakiong!

Then after Operation Smiles, Fiona reminded me that there's a soccer friendly match going on that evening:) i almost forgot that i said i would go down and watch heh:P and so coincidentally, Samuel, fiona's pri sch good friend from RV came to play against our school guys! and so chow, kaichi, fiona and weijie watched the soccer match with me. then kaichi and chow had to leave early. so left fiona and weijie. and weijie stayed with me throughout the 2 matches and then accompanied me home at 9pm. yay thanks weijie:)

anw, i was there to support ANDREW! and i think our schools' soccer really not bad! thrashed RV 11-1 and then DUMAN 4-1 ! but at the first half for the match with duman, it was quite close, and so it was more exciting to watch hahas!

And everyone looked so pro on the field! sigghhh i should have taken up another sports cca mann.. im missing all the adrenaline rush and kicks from tough trainings and competition. but ohwells, i know if i did i would be super tired. i feel happy just supporting anyway:D

ANDREW:D
yes, we must have a little more faith in ourselves sometimes! you're really awesome so believe in youself yeah? JIAYOUS! next time when you play an official match, i shall bring the whole O_O down! thanks for always encouraging me too:)

2009-02-28T19:46:00.003+08:00

Had dance on wednesday from 2.30 till 8.30 on wednesday! and while we were making our way from the dance studio to the mph halfway through prac. this really gorgeous rainbow stopped all of us in our tracks. the rainbow stretched directly overhead our school and it would have been an awesome picture if i had a proper camera with me! i took these pictures with my lousy phone camera and it can still be seen! and actually there was a second rainbow above the first one. however, it was too faint to be captured on my lousy phone :( ohwellsss...

then everyone whipped out their camera and started taking pictures with the rainbow:D

the rainbow really looked like it was forming this ring around our school like some holy aura. so mystifying and enchanting. its been years since i last saw a rainbow. and it appeared at the right time. just when everyone was feeling tensed and stressed, the rainbow got everyone smiling and it was really comforting:D

And how can i not take a picture with MEL!:D

Jing Yuan! my superbly awesome first dance partner in modern dance! but im not partnering him anymore cos laoshi kinda changed our positions and stuff. aww man... we have such great chemistry during the partnerwork ok. and i think its really important to have a partner who knows whats going on. I CANT STAND IT WHEN I HAVE TO LEAD AND PROMPT THE GUY INSTEAD :/ and he actually went to tone up so he can carry me hahaha! and yes today i realised that he did got abit more buff. but ohwells, he doesnt mind being my partner and going for latin ballroom classes with me after i finish ballet this year! yay:D and yesss we havent battled our womanizer yet haha!

CHARLES AND JING YUAN!

Somewhere, over the rainbow,

way up high.

There's a land that I heard of

Once in a lullaby.

Somewhere, over the rainbow,

skies are blue.

And the dreams that you dare to dream

Really do come true.

Someday I'll wish upon a star

and wake up where the clouds are far

Behind me.

Where troubles melt like lemon drops,

Away above the chimney tops.

That's where you'll find me.

Somewhere, over the rainbow,

bluebirds fly.

Birds fly over the rainbow,

Why then - oh, why can't I?

If happy little bluebirds fly

beyond the rainbow,

Why, oh, why can't I?

2009-02-28T19:06:00.003+08:00

10S03B<3!

class has been fun and VERY VERY VERY PLAYFULLLLLL!!!!!!!

latest addition to our class; HU WEI JIE!
how can anyone be so lucky? not fair luhhhhhh... seriously, when jasselyn and i found out, we were like "omg, i cant believe he's so lucky" ahwellsss.......

and no he's not lucky because our class rocks, haha, ok fine in a way yeahhh..but because of something/someone else haha:P

And when our GP teacher didnt come on monday... our class went crazy lol!

bamboo stick vs crutches: the showdown of ahmud and ben goh lols!
and yes, my class guys are retarded haha

so then the girls started to ship out their cameras and my love how my class are made up of such camwhore-loving people wheeessssss

IVAN! aka i-van, with a brother named i-pod! haha jkjk:P

JOLYN!

JANE!

Razia!

Kirthana! from cedar

RACHEL!

JUN HAO! aka rat, mouse, blind mice :P

WEIJIE!

KAKIONG! aka KAKA the soccer player! haha i insist on taking the picture with his specs on cos he looks super intellectual haha!

JASSELYN!

YU TING! aka RAIN STOP. when you want the rain to stop, you can shout for her hahaha!:P

CHERYL LIE!!!!!

ok, my aim is to get single shots with everyone in class! yay! i think i got like half of the class to go! monday's class camp. although i'm feeling super sian and tired now, i'm still looking forward to it, cos i know that we'll have lots of fun together, and hopefully we'll get to know each other even better:D

2009-02-28T18:53:00.002+08:00

It was Juan and Shyuan's birthday on the 22nd of feb! so our og celebrated for the two of them on monday during protected time:D

happy birthday once again loves!

And it was so sweet of Shi min to bake cakes for the 2 birhtday girls. Thanks shi min!

yay! i hope BW10 will stay close always and forever!

i love how i start my every weekday-- Meeting each and everyone of O_O at the house o'me every morning:D

2009-02-23T19:49:00.004+08:00

i'm annoyed at myself :(

i hate how "slim" is never enough.
i hate how i deny the above, and yet deep inside i know its true.
i hate how i'm eating so much and not working out.
i hate how i've not been going for dance lessons.
i hate how i have to drag myself to ballet.
i hate how im doubing if i can last till september comes and still get my distinction for Advance 1. i hate how i have a feeling im going to miss my last distinction for G8 at the rate im going.
i hate how im not giving my best during Advance class.
i hate how i think i can never make the cut for Advance 2 majors.
i hate how dancing doesnt really make me feel that happy anymore.
i hate how i know that if i dont dance, im nothing at all.
i hate how im so stupid and injury prone.
i hate how im always making people worried.
i hate how i know im actually not smart at all.
i hate how i dont even have a subject im best at.

I HATE HOW I'M THINKING MAYBE DANCING ISN'T REALLY MY THING, AFTER DOING IT FOR 7 YEARS OF MY LIFE

i'm no longer feeling it.

she's missing. if you find her, please bring her back.

laoshi didnt want to say who got in for syf yet. and i cant stand the suspense. wednesday it is. im starting to lose confidence in myself. thank god im recovering FAST. if i can get back to training after a fracture in less than 2 weeks. i will do it this time round in less than 3 days. LI MEI, YOU GOT NO TIME TO WASTE OK. YOU HAVE LESS THAN A MONTH TO SAVE YOUR LIFE.

FOCUSSSSSSSSSSSSS

2009-02-20T21:50:00.004+08:00

BW HOUSE PARTY: BWaletines'!

today had lunch with class pple after school. and i must say that i've never had my days filled with so much fun and laugther in school before haha! my classmates are love! like how simin was so sick and random during chem lecture, by asking alvin to sit with his legs closed tgt. and how our whole class was being so naughty during econs lecture :P

anyway, then we had house party!!! our og played floorball and dodgeball! and although we didnt win, at least i had loads of fun running around in our house shirt tgt! I LOVE BW TENNNNNN!!! so today i took loads and loads of photos with them!

NICOLE!

tiffany and nicole, with my super lousy zi-lian skills :P

zhao kai! my fellow modern dancer!

SAGAR! the pro pro speaker! i cant wait to see him at dramafest:)

the super tall and hot DEBBY!

TAN JUAN MIN!!! best obasan in the world, my wargames partner, and fellow tall twin in O_O!

YING ZHE! who finally talks to me before i talk to him lol!

ANDREW! who refuses to keep still and let me take a nice shot. he's the soccer and DRAMA guy!

litying, me, kevin, tiffany!

tiffany, debby and andrew who again refuses to smile for my camera!

TIFFANY!!

LI TYING! she's the best:D

and she cam(w)hored with me:)

KHAIKAL! (ehh? i think thats how i spell his name?) although he's not from the same OG, he was my partner during wargames at the chopstick station. we totally ROCKED ok! we like managed to tag almost everyone coming our way. yay us!

and this is my very ugly swolen left hand! arghhhh.. i was really fine ok! i just crashed into kenneth during captains ball at house party. so i landed on my hand. but im fine no worries! just bruised and aching a little at my back and leg. next time when i fall, i am so not going around school to look for first aid. i ended up going to the hospital for an x ray and it costs 250bucks in total! damn bloodsuckers lah! and i felt so bad cos i had to make Mr Chen, some teacher from our school, and KEVIN accompany me and wait for me. i totally wasted their time cos it wasnt even a frscture or smth. thank god though, or else there goes syf and ballet exam and jazz exam.

THANK YOU SO SO SO MUCH KEVIN AND MR. CHEN!!!!

SORRY FOR ALL THE TROUBLE THAT I'VE CAUSED:/

i feel so stupid can. it was only a game of captains ball. call myself some sports person D: and i've just added a new collection to my pile of xray files. sheesh......

Thank you everyone who asked about me! i'm fine and strong don't worry! and sorry for making you all worried :(

TAG REPLIES!

Nicole: thanks!! hehehe

Elmo: heh... :) i hope you're ok now? i miss you A LOT elmo!

Jolyn: hey!!! YES ME TOO YOU ARE LOVE!

JIEJIE: YEAH... DAMN SHITTY. I FELT SO ARGGH AFT THT.

Huiqi: i missed you in classs! have fun yeah? and omg econs teacher is boring... but she's fine aft the second tutorial i guess:)

chow: HEY! Si chowyue! i love you and dont be too sadd kae? jiayous much!!!

Yu Ting: okies! love you too classmate!

yeah im done! omg typing with one hand sucks can.

2009-02-20T20:40:00.000+08:00

updates for the week!!

firstly, it was alvin's bday on wednesday:) HAPPY BIRTHDAY TONGKAT ALI!!!!!!

he is OLDDDDD now hahas. but we didnt have time to celebrate for him on wed. so most of our class made it up for him on thurs instead. so aft school we had lunch together at the new Manhattan Fish Market at J8!

realise his cake says "time to go to school"? haha damn funny he was late for school that day and our class had such a fun time throwing guesses for the reason he overslept. and i swear he must have had a hangover celebrating the night before, although he refuses to admit it :P

oh and since alvin is such a vain person whose favourite place is the toilet cos there're mirrors, we bought him a chocolate mirror, hoping he doesnt have to visit the toilet so often anymore:P

then after that, we headed back to school! and on the way while jun hao was buying his bubble tea, we manged to take a picture of 10SO3B's very own SIAMESE TWINNNN!!! heh alvin and kakiong! damn cute lah, they seriouSly look alike in this picture HAHA

the vain alvin and his butterfly clip.. hohoho so chio worrr!!!

then i managed to drag alvin, yuting, jun hao, ivan and wei jie to join OPERATION SMILE with me and chow also of course!!! im really glad that they're so on about it, and i cant believe they're really joining with me! everyone who are interested to CHANGE LIVES ONE SMILE AT A TIME, come learn more about OPERATION SMILE and help change the lives of patients with cleft lips/palate!

JASSE AND YUTING! we love raja block's oh-so-cool female toliet!

2009-02-16T21:26:00.002+08:00

it felt like a depressing day to me. and i have no idea why. monday blues maybe? but its so bad that i cant stop it from showing D:

fiona says that quite a few people are going through this phase right now. the sudden drop after the whole adrenaline high from the last 2 weeks apparently. i just have to wait and get over it. D: its sucks to feel so.... i dont know how to explain the feeling... just not right, and not me.

even my classmate felt that something's wrong with me..oh great...

and the annoying part is i really really dont know whats wrong. im not particularly in a bad mood, not angry at anyone, not upset at any matter, not hungry, not tired cos i skipped ballet yesterday.

anw my econs tutor is... ARGH. shit man.. for a split second i regretted, and that feeling sucks. and very unluckily my class was splitted into half. and i very unlucky got the sucky 2nd half of the class. and this totally reminds me of having geog class split up last year. IT WAS SO BAD.

and i totally screwed bio quiz. LOL.

tag replies:

simin: YESSS :D

Shafia: HAPPY V DAY TOO!

elmo: yes... i know right... and i especially miss horticulture! i hate molecular bio D:

litying: heee.. yeaps:D yeaps im feeling better already thanks! anw, i took masters class at my dance school, Dancepointe Singapore. but its like once a week with diff genres each lesson and varying trainers according to the genre :D

2009-02-14T23:30:00.005+08:00

i was looking at my timetable, and i think limei will turn into a grumpy old woman very soon... UGHHHHH

i need earlier breakss!!!!! i hate it when i get hungry cos i really feel grumpy when i am D:

breaks on mon is after 1, and on wed and fri i get no breaks at all. sheessshhhh, i can hear my stomach screaming...
and i dont usually eat breakkie in the morning cos i got no time.. this is damn bad...

ohwells, im not dreading school yet, so i guess im fine:D

and we never fail to camwhore:D so glad mel and i are in the same cca again!

and this is the only orientation picture that i own hahas! reshmi and i, in our EMO makeup and what-are-you-staring-at face! BW10; O_O: we're EMOticons!

and this was taken first thing on pseudo-v day friday morning! I LOVE YOU GUYS BW10!

2009-02-14T22:50:00.006+08:00

HAPPY V DAY!

no i did not go on a date. so if you're waiting for me to post something interesting, you can go now! hahahaha

had dance first thing in the morning till like the afternoon. i am so screwed please, i kinda pulled something in my neck or strained it while dancing (damn stupid limei), and now im suffering from a splitting headache on half of my skull. been waiting for it to go away, but i cant seem to shake it off D: and it totally spoiled my mood for the entire day. ohwelllsssss

then it was singles' "party" with regine, rachel and julia. damn pathetic can! suddenly everyone last minute pang sehh.... alamaks.. but nvrm, im just happy i got to see them cos i really havent seen them in ages. plus its been almost a month since the last time i went for hiphop masters class, and i really miss them!

we finally "lau-ed" our super overdue yu sheng! and since there's 4 of us, we played MAHJONG!!! like finally can. :D and i finally know how to play with 'tai' yays!

and i love regine's dog CHILLI! she's soooo adorable! and her niece CHLEO too! her eyes are SOOOO BEAUTIFUL! and super huge, like alot huger than mine. and she's sooo pretty hahaha! i want to put her in my cupboardddd!!!!!

chloe and julia!

YES HER EYES ARE GORGEOUS O_O

chilli just refuses to stay still. so this wa the best pic i could get. lols!

our yu sheng!

and julia gave us valentine's day kisses! i got 3 haha! and i love how her gloss forms nice lipstick marks on my face! hahas!

rachel and i with our kissed cheeks!:D lols, the crazy us!

happy v day once again!

I FEEL SUPER LOVED! THANKS SO MUCH EVERYONE!

2009-02-13T21:07:00.003+08:00

HAPPY ~~friday-the-13th~~ VALENTINE'S DAY in advance

THANK YOU ALL MY BELOVED FRIENDS WHO GAVE ME HUGS, PRESENTS, AND NOTES. ESPECIALLY CLAN!!!!! I LOVE ALL OF YOU!:D

bought flowers for all those people who mattered to me:D and i feel so happy when i see them going around school carrying my flower:D and most of all, i love how my whole og walked in a group in the morning from our o'me to the parade square. O_O, i really really hope we dont drift apart, despite having diff crazy timetables and tonnes and tonnes of homework! i love all of you guys, HAPPY VALENTINES' DAY!

AND CLAN! you all are the love of my life!! really! kisses and hugs to all of you. i think you all should know by now how much i love you all, so no point saying too much hahas!

and kaichi keeps telling me that our batch so suay, cos we dont get to see the phenomenon od valentines' day in JC, cos this year official v day is on sat and next year's sun. hahas i dont really care luhhsss.. not like it really matters to me hahas! i love everyone everyday!

and alot of random people (whom im surprised they would even care) have been asking me about my final choice in CCA and combi/class changes. ( i mean its really sweet of my friends who really care for me to ask, but i wonder why would some other people even be interested to know, and spread it around o_O)

so here goes: LI MEI IS OFFICIALLY IN MODERN DANCE AND 10S03B!

i didnt change my class in the end, cos i love my class too much!! and i think with the many many help of my other friends and jie jie, econs wouldnt be so bad afterall. hahas, i really wouldnt want to be in some other class. plus, i think our class is starting to bond already:) ALTHOUGH ALVIN KEEPS CALLING ME MINAH, AND SAYING IM A MALAY, AND TEASING ME EVERYTIME I SAY A CHINESE WORD, i still love the rest of the people in our class. i've a feeling that if we all put in alittle bit more effort to get to know each other more, we'll be an awesome class!

and yes, im very thankful that im starting my life in RI(JC) right. I LOVE MY OG AND MY CLASS! and plus, dance practises are getting better bit by bit. i shall learn to love everything that im going to put my heart into! and JC's supposed to be a fresh new start! so no grudges and no dislikes, just a neutral heart, and a passion burning for knowledge and dance!

and im looking forward to bonding with my class during class camp at pulau ubin!

and although i was slightly annoyed by the mugging fever, which is especially prevalent in our OG. i am now starting to accept the fact that, the race for excellence is ON. and im actually glad my og is so 'on' about ~~studying~~ mugging, cos it really motivates me to study as well. and that's a really good thing! plus i have an awesomely smart bunch of people in my og. and i really appreciate how they're always so patient in answering my comparatively dumb questions about school work! THANK YOU LOVES!

and i cant do dramafest anymore, cos the dates clashes with my other commitments D: but all the best to the rest! BW IS WINNNN!!!!

tag replies!

elmo!- hey emelyn! i miss us too! and i definitely miss doing CmPS and sitting next to you in class.. and our caln outing was like *poof* ugghsss... during bio lessons, i ms MR ANDREW CHIA! did you miss him too? haha!

chow!-- yeah man... totally quater life crisis, and i got no time to do our PATCHED SHOES! kill me man... kill me.. rahhhh

tiffany!-- hahahas! yes, you make sense!!! its was kevin's idea, not me hahas! :P

simin!-- hey class mate again! thanks babe:) i'll try to get over it.

Andrew!-- yes im definitely having fun with life!! hahas and of course life includes O_O! see you in school:D

shafia!-- hey! are you still taking hiphop! i'll relink soon!

juan!-- thanks juan!!! AND YESSS HOUSE PARTY! i miss us playing together as BW10!! and if andrew still doesnt pass me the ball during captain's ball, i'm going to bark at him hahaha!

2009-02-09T16:27:00.003+08:00

i was so undecisive, and now im impulsive. GREAT job limei :/

first official official school day today. im in 10S03B!i like our civics tutor, she's funny in a weird way. plus she's friendly and easy to talk to:D and i think my class not bad too:) at least have cheryl lie, simin, jasselyn, huiqi, and rachel yeo.

but the sad part is that im changing from BCME to BCMG, cos i figured that i 'd prob score better for geog, cos i like geog more, and i dont want to dread going for econs lectures. so i very impulsively, went to change my subj combi today, aft considering for only like less than 2 hours. i guess after the whole "street or modern" thingy, im too sick of weighing the pros and cons of leaving a nice class, or choosing a subj i would prob do better in. so bcmg it is. im praying that i made the wiser decision this time round. but first of all, i must pray that there's still vacancy in that bcmg class. or better still if i get to stay with my class, but change combi only:)

had our first math lecture today. permutations and combinations (perm and comb LOL) and all i want to say is, I MISS MR JASON NG VERY VERY VERY MUCH:(

then lunched with my beloved BW10:D

anw, im quite disappointed that not alot of clan people are in the same class despite the fact that almost all of us chose the same combi:( and due to orientaion and stuff, i realised that clan havent really been meeting up and talking to each other alot these few days. it suddenly dawned on me that we are all in different classes and ccas, LIKE ALL... sheessshhh.. and then i felt really really empty for awhile:( CLAN WE CANNOT DRIFT OK!!!! i really think i could die without clan. they're the only people who will never judge me for who i really am. I MISS US! lets have clan outing soon kae?

oh and im on the verge of going up to someone and confronting her. SERIOUSLY. firstly, she ditched clan ok. and the thing is, if it wasnt for clan, which is made up of such nice and forgiving people, she would be left all alone, and hated by her previous group of friends. and now that, she's back up on her social ladder, she thinks she's all that. she doesnt even bother to say hi to the people in clan anymore. i hope she doesnt end up in a bad fall from desperately trying to climb up man. and seriously, have i not been a kind friend to you? you can go all around telling people that you hate me (for god knows what reason. and i would like to know the reason cos i was really shocked when i found out that of all the people, you're the one that doesnt like me the most right now), and let me tell you, I DONT FREAKING GIVE A DAMN, because im not in a desperate attempt to be the most popular b**** in school. i really wonder when you will stop being so childish, and learn your lesson. and the best part is that, she thinks i dont know that she's been putting me down. but ohwells, the way my parents brought me up, when someone throws a stone at me, i will offer a sweet in return. so flash me all the fake smiles you want when theres people around me, and i will also smile back at you. roll you eyes at me all you want when no one's looking, and i will just turn my head away. but from now on, all i will give to you is a smile and nothing more. you digust me.

so now when i say clan, i mean it without her. i hope she realises that everyone in clan is super annoyed and repelled by her attitude, but she probably doesnt care.

anw, THANK YOU BERNICE BABY!!!! for the valentines day chocolates! baby was so sweet can, she made the chocolates herself ok! and i ate one and it tasted real good:D i miss seeing each other almost everyday for dance pracs during concert, and now i only see my ballet babes once a week D: plus these few days i've kinda lost my appetite, so the chocolates really came in just the right time!

tag replies!

juan!-- ehh! why you always want to carry me one! i want to carry you too!! hahas and yes TAKE PICTURES:D

kevin-- hahas! YESS, O_O AT EACH OTHER :D thanks for being such an awesome OGL!

resh!-- yesss! thanks for always being so encouraging, LOVE YOUUUUU!!!!

li tying-- i think i've said enough iloveyous hahas! YOU ROCK!

barry-- omg barry, when you mention strawbarry, i think of your campaign slogan! "of all the berries in the world, barry tng is the best!" HAHAHA!

nicole-- ME TOOOO :((((

2009-02-07T20:29:00.002+08:00

O_O

5 days of orientation have passed in just a flash. And now im wishing i could turn back time, and go through it over and over again.

This year's orientation theme is O'TIERO! which means unity in spanish. And i must proudly say that i have the most united, most fun-loving, most crazy OG, O_O BW10!!!!!! and yes, our group name is O_O. so adorable right!

And not to forget our OGLs! Li Tying, Kevin, and Hiok!!! i think we have the awesomest OGLs ever!!! they're irreplaceble:D

over the past 5 days, so many things have happened. and i dont think i will be able to fully describe every funny thing that we laughed at together, every challenge we solved together, every bit of love and care we've showered on one another. They say a picture paints a thousand words, but unfortunately, on the very last day, at the very end of orientation, the precious camera with over 2000 photos of the memories we've had over these 5 days, got stolen. i've no wish to elaborate further, cos i'd very much hope that we've all learnt from this expensive lesson and forget about this black mark in our orientation. instead, we'll remember all the fun times we've had together.

and limei's so proud of herself hahas! despite my usual injury-prone self, i only got one knee skinned and a few blue blacks here and there. kudos hahas! and i got my skinned knee during war games while playing stripe me if you can. and i dont even remember which guy i tackled that caused my injury, damn smart right hahas.

To Li Tying, Kevin and Hiok:

THANK YOU ALL SO SO SO MUCH FOR MAKING MY ORIENTATION SUCH AN UNFORGETTABLE ONE!!!!! we cant thank you guys enough for all the hard work you've all put in for our orientation. all the late nights staying up to plan for this, i can totally imagine how tiring it can get, cos everything turned out so successful and greaat! thanks for giving me advice and lending me a listening ear regarding my cca dilemma over street or modern. talking to a senior who've been through it really helped me alot, and it really inspired me to follow my heart and do what i really want despite all the difficulties that might come. im really glad my OGLs are all so friendly and easy to talk to about my problems, it wouldnt have been the same with some other OGLs:D i love you guys!

To BW 10 O_O, juan min, shi min, nicole, debby, reshmi, yi shyuan, elaine, shal, tiffany, andrew, conan, barry, ying zhe, sagar, derwin, zhao kai, justin, yogesh, guan yu, kenneth:

I love you all to bits and pieces! we must not forget each other ok!! we must make it a point to say hi! next time when we see each other at the corridor ok! cos i tend to not see people, so if i never say hi, say hi first kae! hahahas, i will try my best to spot all of you, im not very tal you see, and went i walk, i dont really lift my head very high hahahas!:P

we must all remember how
- we first held each other's hand and encouraged one another at our first station game
- we played "please will you follow me" and couldnt catch the tempo
- had our first long converstatin in a group, and it was about GPAs lols!
- our first dinner at j8 together and played charades, and pointed at reshmi for mother hahahaha!
- we ran for EA with swensens in mind and had fun playing more captain's ball and charades.
- we laughed at each other during dance prac:p
- helped each other during wargames
- went shopping for food and compared prices of tuna cans!
- played cards at take 5, and made sandwiches for each other
- did eyeliner for the emo parade
- took model-ish photo shoots with our emo look.

BW10 is the best OG ever!!!! we make people go O_O hahaha!

2009-01-31T21:18:00.005+08:00

pictures of reefwalk! courtesy of kaichi's cam and my sucky handphone camera!

jiayan me huiqi and kaichi! going dizzy on the first ferry ride!

yay dorm 4 FTW:D

GIRLS:D

Spot the camouflaging crab!

Sea algae!

An octupus's lair! Characterised by the rocky opening!

Sea snail!

Spot the greenish sea anaemone!

STARFISH!!

Sea snails and shells and mollucses in abundance!!

our bucket community! hahas with crabs and snapping shrimps that snapped up 3 other tiny crabs. and a tube worm that ate up 2 other worms and grew longer instantly!

Mr Hermit Crab! lots of them everywhere!

crabby!

a sea star a firce clean white crab, and a nasty dirty crab lols! the guys kept putting the crabs together for a battle -.- hahas

the fiesty biggest crab we caught! with prettily embossed patterns on its shell!

Another naughty crab

another pretty feeder crab! lots of them around!

10 seastars!

teachers FTW!

KACHEEK!!!!!

yay and so my life got abit more meaningful cos of this trip:D

Went for modern dance prac today. i think i've had enough of the SYF type and im not really very demure-ish so i think i sucked and cant do anything well during the dance. i guess my mind's abit more made up. i have awesome friends who can give me great advice on my dilemma and are willing to lend me a listening ear. thank you guys! and yes, i've learnt to look at the dance itself instead of the politics in the CCA and the instructors and whatsoever. and i guess, the SYF dance thingum is not really for me at the moment. so yeah. i really wanted to be in modern dance last time and i've always thought there would never be a need to make a decision. and i guess cos i've been mixing around with the hiphoppers more often, im more tuned towards streets .so now im stuck and torn between what kinda dancer im really am. afterall, deep down the roots of me, im a ballerina. ohwellss. but syf's only until april, and i would definitely get to learn more about other dances if i go for modern. HOWWWWWWWWW........ confusing lah! why cannot join both... I WANT BOTH LAHHHH... *whinessssssssssssssssssss*

stupidly and very obediently went for R project auds today for modelling with jo, cos our seniors asked us to. LOL. i wanted to dig a hole and hide myself lah. everyone there were all tall and hot and pretty ok.... and i felt damn ugly and short and fat and flat. lols. plus so many of them were j2 seniors. but since we've already stayed back for so long and since limei's not that much a quitter, we still went for the auds. i think i seriously embarassed myself lots. i should have taken note more about the modelling part lols! i thought it was supposed to be some charity CIP thingy! sheesh but ohwells.. whats done cannot be undone. dont think i'll get in anyway, didnt even "strut my stuff" like america's next top model. i felt like some odinary ugly person D: or rather, i am one. if i get in i'll ask my ah-ma go buy lottery LOL!

2009-01-31T20:42:00.002+08:00

REEFWALK!

it was loads and loads of fun!!!!!whheeesss it wasnt that bad afterall i guess. at least i really had a great great great learning experience. and everyone who went were nice people so yeah.

we stayed with the tropical marince scinece institute at St John's island for the first day. the place was cool ! it has like a touch pool near our dorm. and our dorm had air-con wheesss and nice decent beds hohoho.

firstly was a talk that i almost feel asleep lols. ok i did fell asleep but i didnt get caught hahas. the guy was too cheem for me to catch up with and he spoke real slowly so yeah.. ughhsss. :P then came the funnessssstttt part of reefwalk! wading at the shore during low tide! it was very much like chek jawa. we found super alot of marine creatures and oraganisms! and there were so many live sea snails and mollucs and hermit crabs around! and the crabs were in abundance! i cant believe we tried so hard to catch a crab at sentosa till aaron fell from the rocks and got cut. over at st john's its like you can just pick a crab up so easily! i really learnt alot alot there from all the teachers and my other fellow rafflesians:) but the sad part was that we didnt get to see an octupus, but we saw many of the octupus's lair, but they wouldnt come out. but ohwells i already saw my octupus at sentosa so it doesnt really matter haha. and we found so many sea star s(starfishes) i think we like found 10 in total? lols i've never seen so many star fishes in my life before! oh and i touched a sea anaemone! so cool can! first time touching the spongy looking one that kinda sucks your finger when you touch it. i guess to the fishes, its stings. adn we managed to catch some fishes and shrips too! ooh and worms! hahas

aiyoh too many things to say about reefwalk, you'll have to experience it for yourself to really understand how i felt:D

then we went back and bathed and had yummy spaghetti dinner prepared by the teachers! with salad too! yumyums it was super delicious! thank you teachers! my group was supposed to cook dinner but in the end we didnt. but so sad the night sky wasnt clear so we didnt get to do star gazing. so we watched blue planet videos in the end, i still loved it anyway:D

uhh i was abit paraboid about sleeping right at the door but i fell asleep quite fast anyways hahas! paiseh bunkmates for having the lights on at first for me to sleep:P you guys rock! oh anyway, i bunked with sihui, juanmin, kexin and hui min (j2 bio soc senior) YAYS! i love our bunk whees:D

nextday we packed our dinner and crossed voer to Lazarus island for a trek and the beach was so smooth and the sea water was so clear! so we caught grasshoppers, locusts and praying mantis and some other insects while studying about the plants near the shore. then we went to play in the sea water and had lunch whees. then we left st john and ferried to kusu island.

Ms Abigale Ng did her PhD on turtles and tortises so cool right! so i had a great conversation with her while looking at the terapines, tortises and turtles in kusu island and i learnt how to differentiate them, and learnt which are native to S'pore, and the different chracteristics of them. wheeesss.

then its home sweet home.... awww.... i want more of the trip!

but i dumb dumb forgt my camera so i didnt get to take so many awesome pictures! quite sad, but nevermind luhs. the memories and experience are locked in me:D

and the trip got abit more amusing towards the end. hahas. shant elaborate.. shhh.... and yes AMUSING is the word. i always feel like laughing, i think kaichi agrees with me haha!

2009-01-31T20:31:00.002+08:00

UPDATES UPDATES!

my life has so far been packed for the whole week, which is a good thing i guess. just that i didnt have time to blog and i kinda forgt about most of the details that happened in my life for the week:P

new year was ok. not as new year-ish as the past years though, guess the recession really made a difference.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIEJIE!
wed was jiejie's bday! i had streets from 5.30 to 7.30 so i went home late. anyway street was lots of fun! and its confirmed: I AM IN DANCEWORKS WOO! but that means i've got to do my part to work hard on my popping. JIAYOU JIAYOU! daddy picked me up and went i reached home i was shocked lah. like so many pairs of shoes outised my house door! i thought we're only going to celebrate as a family only with a few of her close friends. in the end all our family friends came. jiejie's so lucky that her chinese bday is on newyear. she gets more ang baos and we never fail to celebrate it. i managed to finish making her pair of shoes for her on time the night before! whees its called kite runner! go to patched-shoes.livejournal.com to see it:D

2009-01-27T14:48:00.004+08:00

Day one of CNY!

woke up early in the morningthough i slept real late the night before. and as usual, my family and i went out to various temples to pray! however, this year the crowd wasnt as bad, but its still crowded lols.

vegetarian food is love!:D

2009-01-26T23:01:00.001+08:00

Reunion dinner !

steamboat at home as usual, and shen shen ah chek, ah ma and cousins all came over. although its not some super high class dinner, but the steamboat was full of good food! and there were so much food that i stuffed myself until i was so bloated. LOL. and yu sheng was yummy!

food!

more food!

lau-ing yu sheng

spot the abalones hahas!

family is the love!

And then gambling starts! lols. played blackjack cos that's the only game that my young cousins know how to played. and this year due to the lack of coins, i dug out my precious collection of year 2004 ten cent coins worth of 7 dollars to exchange with everyone else :/ quite sad to part with my coins, but ohwells, they've been in my piggybank long enough. won quite abit of money at first as banker, then daddy took over me cos i wanted to watch rush hour. then in the end daddy lost all my money that i won alamaks D: but ohwells for the fun of it, i guess i dont really mind:)

look at how my little cousin peeks at his card. seems like a pro right!

my sis and her blackjack lols!

then its off to the temple to pray at around 11 plus as usual :)

then while waiting for my daddy to finish helping out, i was randomly looking around, and i found this thing on the table hahas! its actually a paper weight that says jesus cares. so cool right? and then ironically its found in a temple and used to weigh down the papers with the temple's name on it. and i doubt the elderlys at the temple actually knows what it mean so they just used it. but ohwells, yes jesus cares i believe, all gods in this world cares for you and me:D you got to have faith!

mummy and jiejie

mummy and me!

me and jiejie!

and by the time i reached home, its like 2 am already. so we prayed at home and stayed up till it was 4 am!

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

2009-01-24T19:05:00.002+08:00

went for the first streets practice today!

and it was supersuper duper oober FUNNNN!!!!!!! our instructor's HAMZAH! he is super funny and i loved his choreos hahas. luckily its not so much of locking and only abit of popping, so i could feel myself dancing. lols! everytime i do choreos with too much locking and popping stuff, i always feel like im only doing the movements and not dancing it.

i think the streets seniors are aimiable and approachable, so although today's our first prac, i didnt feel as shy and awkard to just dance and be myself. YAY! anyway, on wed's prac, all the new J1s will all have to audition and hamzah will choose some of us for DANCEWORKS!!! sounds like fun! hopefully i'll get chosen. but then we'll have to compete with NUS blast and NRA which is like super scarrryyyyy!!! cos they're all really pro. like all the masters from masters class and jacky and john are either from NRA or NUS blast. and yes they are proooooo... but it'll be such a great experience, and i believe hamzah's choreo will rock the stage whoo!

ok so i guess my mind's made up? but jo and mel are probably going for modern, and i believe they'll definitely get chosen cos they're pro:) and i think my new batchmates in streets are all nice people. hoorays!

alrightys! cant wait for new year to come, then its wed, and then its reefwalk! but im missing sleepover cum hangover chinese new year party with the hiphoppers cos of reefwalk. awww.... reefwalk better be worth it and i think it will be:D

2009-01-23T22:48:00.002+08:00

frisbee-ing with fiona, elmo, chow and kaichi! ok quite fun. just that it got abit sian. but i got my forehand throw right already! thanks to fiona hahas! then again, im thinking twice about joining frisbee.

ARRGHHHH... THIS CCA-DILEMMA THINGY SHOULD JUST GO AWAY... grrrrrrr

cos i got a call from streets saying i got in! and i felt super exhilarated. guess what fiona said is true lah : " limei, you cant live without dance" LOLS. and yes i shall stop being stupid and self denial. so its streets i guess. plus frisbee clashes with interact. but then jo is persuading me to join modern with her and mel. lols limei is a tree, she's so easily swayed by others... alamaks..

bought my new handphone today! SONY ERICSSON W595! ehh i wanted the blue one! but jiejie say not nice, so got the white and red one. so patiortic lols. but then i realised that candice and deedee has the same phone as well! lols. but its nice. thanks mummy! and then mummy also bought me a new cordless phone for my room! yays! now i can talk till midnight in my room hehes:D THANKYOU MUMMY! I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH!

then had dinner with ahma and cousins and shen shen and ah chek. havent seen my cousins for very long. and before i know it, they're going to be taller than me. ohwells i feel so old and un-awesome :/

2009-01-22T22:17:00.002+08:00

limei is seriously thinking of switching to a livejournal blog which only people i am close to reading it. cos i have alot of things i want to say but then these few days i realise that actually alot of people, whom i didnt expect, read my blog. ohwells.

today had the last pw session. its on collaboration and teamwork, and though its quite cliched, at least its better than some boring talk. we had to do some discussions in a group. and i made new friends today:D

watched inkheart with emelyn, kaichi, cryst, chow, candice, jingxian, prissy, mag and shirley!
i give 4 stars:D i loved it, especially the way its a fantasy that does not happen in a completely different world. lols.

then waited for time to pass in the canteen with elmo. and smth v funny happened lols. but i think i was abit harsh when i shot the answer without even thinking ugghhss! and i didnt know he was J2, ugghs. and apparently he's from interact:/ LOLs, but i think thats the most interesting and funny thing thats ever happened since school started hahas! i hope he was just playing, and i didnt burst his ego bubble that badly. sorry if i did ugghs. but i applaude his bravery, i wouldnt dare to do that hahaha!

went for modern dance tryouts. limei has nothing to say. i think i might end up joining street dance? but thats if i dont get into interact or frisbee i guess. my love for frisbee got sparked up by chow ystd. i missed playing frisbee during PE! although that means i'll prob get much much much more tanned. lols mummy's against me joining it but ohwells. its my cca so i still get the final say:P

then went for wushu trials. interesting!
i think its kinda fun lah. but its not at the top of my list right now. but i guess i wouldnt mind going into it if i cant get into anw of the CCAs i desperately want to get in right now.

then took 2 hours to get home. gosh reached home round 9 lols.

frisbee-ing with clan at bishan park tmr! no school whees. i cant wait. and new year's coming! that means i can officially munch up all the goodies at home now. yays.

school was generally life-wasting. spent 4 to 5 hours everyday waiting and chatting with clan for tryouts. then end up getting CCA-depression lols! i guess frisbee's the last tryout im going to go for.

2009-01-19T18:02:00.005+08:00

boring.

thats school.

sat in the hall for 3 hours until my butt grow big already lols. talks and more talks. noly the GP one's slightly more interesting. and i realise, our online library database thingy is super cool! it links to so many libraries, and its called eBRARY. super huge database ranging from fictional books to reference books to newspaper to periodicals and opposing viewpoints and many more! now its gonna be so much easier to do my readings and gather info:D

met regine aft sch to go walk walk arnd jp cos i needed to buy my planner and check out the new singtel mobile youth plans, and she needed to go buy julia's present:) and i really like my new planner! its from stationery island, cos i have no idea where to get pretty planners, popular's are not very pretty. and the one i got is $11.50! i wished i was in taiwan, the planners there all so cheap and pretty, but ohwells! anw i really really liked the little prince one! but then they're selling it for like 42.50! so ex can! got no money man. wished someone could buy it for me :( yeah.. DREAM ON limei D: but its really really well designed! and its like monthly plus weekly plus daily planner plus cash book plus notebook all in one! and the best part is that its all about THE LITTLE PRINCE! one of my favourite storybooks ever.

my planner's theme is like a study SOS thingy. quite cute. it has like a homework to-do-list at the side and it has goal setting, plotting of results, etc! good for student who are not very disciplined like me hahas! and it comes in a ziplock lols!

a very sweet and pretty musical cum jewellery box for julia from precious moments! HAPPY BIRTHDAY JULIA:D

i think i need to get my life straight. its abit messy, disorganized, aimless, worthless, empty as of now. i hate doing work, but if i dont tire myself out and make myself so busy that i dont have time for even myself, it feels as if i'm really lazy and useless. lols. gym and dance used to drive me in life. NOW WHAT? i need school timetable and cca to hurry up and start.. grr... i feel lazy= growing fat and lousy.

anw im going for the reefwalk already! YAYs! much thanks to simin who didnt want to go and decided to swop with me:D now i can go with kaichi!!! wheesss.. next thurs and fri aft cny:D and plus its a bio elective! LIMEI LOVES BIO!:D plus its shore and marine biology, i love! always wanted to be a marine biologist when i was young and my favourite tvee channel was discovery and animal planet lols! until one day i realised you'll have to know how to swim really well and plunge into water with depths that your feet can never reach to be a marine biologist hahahah!

so its two weeks of not going to gym with gymming buddies regine, rachel, emily and john! lols. this thurs there's wushu trials hahas! next time i must let my son (if i ever get one, or maybe i'll adopt lols!) learn wushu:D

2009-01-18T11:29:00.008+08:00

AARON'S HOUSE WARMING!

met bern and weiling then went to aaron's house tgt. he's house's really nice! and the best part is that his living room can be turned into a ktv place anytime! super cool lightings and his mum has the ktv audio set! like really ktv ok. they have the kbox remote plus huge speakers! very coolios. and his mum was a singer! she sings superbly well, at first i thought it was the cd palying, turns out it was his mum! and she won alot of singing competitions before... whoaaa...

while waiting for regine, re'ann, emily, daphne, leon, john to come, bern and i camwhored, and i had gret fun with the kids!

messy hair!

the kid's play area!

and this is priscilla, aaron's sister who's also learning ballet in dp. and her boyfriend, dominic! hahas! so cute lahs the 2 of them. priscilla told me he's her bf secretly, then dominic announced it openly1 and gosh, i wonder what kind of era this is now. lols! the whole family knows about their r/s lah! and they really very sweet tgt. priscilla got good taste in guys hahas! then dominic's younger sis was also there and she told me that she also has a bf called rucus lols!

and priscilla loves taking pics hahas!

the people who didnt sing yesterday lols!!

singing ktv! for FREE muahahaha! and re'ann and regine harmonises really well! cousins jiu shi cousins hahas!

rach, weiling and bern!

rachel and bernice!

daphne and I:D

regine!!

re'ann!

emily!

leon! with his coke!

daphne and regine!

me and rachel under aaron's super cool blue lightings!

then after that we played cluedo!!!!! so fun can! john explained the game to us. the last time i played the game, and the only time i played it was when i was stil in pri sch. and i think we totally just anyhow-ed the rules last time lah. and this cluedo is newer, like kinda integrated hahas! so it was much more intellectual and fun! i like intellectual games:) so john, elaine (john's niece?) bern, me, emily and regine played the game tgt! we took quite long to finish the game, cos it was difficult to guess the murderer and the weapon plus the place. but in the end john won the game hahs!

then bern and i went home tgt. waited for bus 30 like 40 mins? damnss.. until emily regine and re'anna nd leon also come down already then the bus came hahas1 so took the bus with emily and berna dn its home sweet home:D

2009-01-18T10:45:00.002+08:00

First 2 days of school!

Thursday:

havent wake up so early for a long time. so when i had to wake up at 6, i could feel my eye bags swelling first thing in the morning.

school was kinda fun for a first day hahas! we were seperated into groups, so bayley 1 and 2, and waddle 1 and 2 had sexuality education together! the 4 hour workshop was quite fun, and i must say the credit goes to our trainer/speaker, CANDICE KOH!(or is it toh? lols) anw, the workshop was conducted by the adam khoo company! and it totally reminds me of the last time i was in adam khoo in p6. their trainers are really all super interesting and charismatic, never failing to capture our attention, and inspire us with their anecdotes and values in life. what i liked abt the workshop was that it wasnt so much about sex ed, but more of life ed hahas! we touched on issues like self-esteem, staying in love, communication, asking myself what i believe of relationships, and whether they will help me in one, etc. :) and during activities, we had to find a partner of the opp gender, and i happened to partner this guy who was kaichi's pri sch friend! small world right? but the funny thing was that kaichi was just right beside me, but he couldnt recognise her at first hahas! what a small world!

then aft tht went to meet chow and joyce and jinxD at bugis. went to bras basar to get stuff at art friend and sagacity!

then was supposed to go gymming with john, regine and emily. but then there's this dinner and dance going on for the src! so the gym was closed :/ so emily regine and i learnt the high school musical choreo from jacky cos emily needed it for her friday morning exercise with her primary school kids in juying pri. so cool right!

then went up to have dinner at nihon mura (yes, again hahas!) ate their green tea ice cream!!!! and it tastes really good! GREEN TEA IS LOVE:D

then had breaking masters class. so now limei's head has a baluku hahahas! cos we did head stand and shoulder freeze! so my shoulder hurts too hahahas! but it was great fun! whoa but seriously limei has no talent in breaking at all ok! all those indian step, kick and step all cannot catch lah! lols! i dont get the groove at all. and whatever i do i just look balletic. DAMNs!

FRIDAY:

school was sooo boring! now i understand why joyce complained that sch's damn boring cos with all the talks, it really is, plus she havent had sex ed lols! had a math talk and a pw talk in LT1. i can foresee my math going die in the coming months... sighh.... I MISS MR NG!!!! i want mr ng lahhhhhhhhh (pouts, lie on the floor, starts rolling)

pw talk was ugghhhssss... we were introduced to the ms MAY TAN of RJC. lols!!!!! but i think seriously that teacher, whose name my brain refuses to process, is much much much worse that ms may tan. at least miss may tan is nice when we're nice. that teacher was ....:S and then this guy got called to stand up cos he put up his leg onto the hair in front of him in the LT. and then i suddenly realise that i havent seen this kinda thing for 4 years! the last time anyone got called up during an assembly was in pri school, cos this kinda thing oesnt happen to girls. LOL.

then went to eat prata at this prata place!!! its like super yummy! ordered 2 kosong prata and a milo dinosaur(though im milo intolerant lols!) and i had a happy lunch, though i felt like puking after that lols. then walked over to emelyn's house! its the first time i've been to her house leh! and i've known her for 2 years already! and i love her house! its those country cottage style! i like! and kaichi and i got the same taste, we like the zen style too! if i were emelyn, i would rush home everyday lor hahas! but i was so tired, i fell asleep on emelyn's sofa, very confortable man! and then kaichi, emelyn and fiona, the pro piano people started playing the piano and it totally makes the atmosphere much more soothing! then joyce and i suddenly felt so musically declined hahas! but nevermind, the two of us shall concentrate on our guitar lols! i suddenly regret dropping piano when i was young, but then i again i wouldnt have liked it cos of al the theory hahas!

then went daiso at imm with chow. bought paint! went home!

2009-01-14T17:55:00.000+08:00

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2009-01-14T17:48:00.002+08:00

im already sick of school. can you believe it? and my school only officially starts tomorrow. GOSH....

RJC's open house cum CCA orientation for us rp students. i practically signed up for almost all the CCAs haha! damn crazy lah. anw, met clan at 10 at bishan, but fiona was late so we waited and then candice at first say want to act angry then in the end she ownself start laughing lah! hahahas.. so funny! anw so happy see clan today:D i missed us crapping and lame-ing around haha!

anw, then halfway, i met up with mel, and accompanied her around to look at the diff CCA booths. and heres the list of CCAs i signed up for!

- wu shu, ultimate frisbee, canoeing, ODAC, street dance, modern dance, interact club, raffles advocates, guitar ensemble, gavel society, film society, raffles medical student interest group (SIG), street magic SIG, raffles ONEarth

so many right! haha, but i think going for trials are so fun! wheesss:D anw, i shall brood over which CCA to choose when the dateline comes. and why does RJ have so many fun and nice CCAs! aiyoh so hard to choose lehs.. im really interested for all that i signedup for alamaks.. but im so happy i get to choose my CCA! missed out all the fun of choosing and going for trials in sec one. ohwells!

then aft tht, went to walk walk around somemore. met kelly there! oh and shi hui told me that her cousin's also in dancepointe! and she's Yi An! so cool right! what a small world hahas:D

then went to J8 to meet clan, then walked back again to RJ to get to the opp busstop. took 157 home!

aiyoh, but im really very very tired! open house only, already so tired! i cant imagine normal school days. sigh. and why must RI be at the first gate! the walk to RJ from the mrt is so long can! its like by the time i get to school, i'll be soaked already. but lucky next year i mag's dad can give joyce and i a lift to school almost everyday!! YAY! thanks alot mag!! you rock:D now limei can wake up at 6am only wheessss:D

oh and limei's in love with bread right now:D i like eating bread esp from those old old confectioneries:D

actually tonight rach, bern and kelly supposed to go trial the 8pm class, and i go watch them. then end up now all back out, so im not going down anymore lols! shall slack at home. wanted go gymming, but really CMI.

anw, ystd i went to chow's nanny's house to set up our PATCHED! took the whole day and decided to revert back to lj. and im really proud to say its done! and orders are rolling in!! going to meetup with chow to do more designs on friday! and im in love with the lj cut! hahas so fun and neat i like! hmmss... thinking if i should change my blog to lj. tempting! lols. and im thinking of having a low profile blog like chow and kaichi and joyce, since my blog is very much my diary. ohwells! limei's kinda lazy though, when she's motivated enough, she shall switch! (alliterations! hahas)

anw, the baby at chow's nanny's ouse is so cute, and her eyes are sooo huge!!! so adorable can! just that i really think she hates the eeyore (thats why she keeps crying and hitting the eeyore's face with her fist), but chow insists she doesnt lols!and i had really nice homecooked dinner by her nanny, yums!:D

then aft tht when for g8 coaching! yay! finally finished learning poetic. and the hankerchief, aka 'empress' character dance! wheess.. i really dont know which dance to do man. one more charcter dance left to go! i think my brain should have enough space lols!

2009-01-12T22:16:00.003+08:00

THANK YOU GOD:D

got A2 for higher chinese. YAY:D i think praying really helps. chanted for a short while in the morning when i woke up today. havent done it in a year already, and i think it works! thank you god! i will strive my best and live my life with as little regrets and disappointment as possible for now on!:)

ok, but i cant deny the fact that human beings are greedy. i know i should be satisfied with my A already, cos afterall, thats what i prayed for, and i said it'll be enough. but then i really think i could have done better and got an A1. i think this year i've let my expectations dropped alot. chinese used to be a subject i could be proud of, now its no longer like that, and i think i only have myself to blame for not giving in my 100%. but ohwells, i put that lousy feeling of not being able to hit perfect scores aside, and limei is now very very very thankful she dont have to do chinese anymore:D not that i hate chinese, but it will be a load of my mind when it comes to exams:)

oh and when we went back to school today, those who went to taiwan received letters from taiwan buddies!!! and i was so touched when i received the card from cathy! it was so sweet of her! i didnt managed to send out the letters i wrote to her on time because i forgot to ask for her postal code :( sighhh.. shall send one for new year! its amazing how a one day immersion to their school can lead to such lasting friendships. its been more than a year since i've known her already:) i really hope one day i'll meet her again hahas! she's been saying that she wants to return to S'pore, i hope she does, then i can bring her around and spend time with her! awww... i really really miss her alot. THANK YOU CATHY! loves!

aft collecting results, went to buy sch uniform! yay finally bought. but the skirt is like ssssuper looonnnnnnnnnggg! shall shorten it hahas!

then aft tht went to cut my hair! wanted just a trim, end up the hairdresser cut alot :( haiyoh... so much for trying to grow my hair can alamaks. so now its back to the irritating at the shoulder, but not at the shoulder kinda length. aiyoh. i hate letting down my hair when its at that length... pishh.. but my hair grows fast, so i shall be good and patient and wait for it to grow somemore:)
but i like it when i get a haircut! i feel "restarted". guess thats a good thing. its a way i "reset" myself :)

then went to tj, to put the stack of cd-r i bought and waited for regine to come and pass me her Saw series! so cool can! i can watch everything now hehes.. but i dont dare watch alone, must watch with someone cos im super afraid of this kinda violence stuff. when it comes to violence, limei gets weak heart hahas! while waiting, had a long and nice chat with san. havent seen her for so long. the last time i saw her was during concert! so long right? its been one month already. gosh how time flies! i get to see even less of her now that both my classes are at jw, hopefully extra coaching starts at tj soon!

then ate dinner with regine.

met her while going back, and i wonder maybe if she'll apologise one day? not that i really wanted one, or im still taking the matter to heart, but im just really wondering if she knows that she's done wrong. part of life is about making mistakes, learn from it and try to get it right the next time round, aint it? but ohwells... i just hope she doesnt put me into her "avoid-for-life" list. hahas! thats quite sad aint it?

Dont miss me. Im not worth it. Thank you. Sorry.

2009-01-12T11:42:00.002+08:00

ugghsss i very very very scared now. butterflies in my stomach! 2 more hours, eeks! and im leaving house to meet joyce soon.

i feel weird and fat in school u all over again haha! must be i grew fat plus got shorter. my pinafore like very long lehs D: ahh.. i really feel fat, must be the double layer lols! cant wait to change to rj uniform hahas.

ystd had ballet from 2.30 till like 7. G8 plus Advance. finally can remember g8 work:D lols and adv was as usual challenging and muscle-aching haha! and its the last time im seeing regine:( she's going back to england this saturday. so sad! then next time i'll be seeing her is in june, then we can all celebrate our bdays together:D actually, she's really a role model for me man. its like she's studying overseas now, and yet she's still able to dance so well, and take dance classes in england. and she's really smart too! if only i can get a scholarship to go overseas lah. sighhh... but then if i start teaching, i must continue, cant go overseas... aiyoh... choices choices! shall put this off till next year comes :)

got back adv f results! confirmed got distinction, dont have to keep thinking about other possiblities. phews! me bern yingyan same marks whees:D same class jiu shi sam class de! hahaha

hmmm.. jacky wants us to join wed 8pm hiphop and jw. hmmmmsss.. dont think i'll be going bah. i wanted the ballerina hiphop thingy, if not abit no point. plus my term fees for no its like 550bucks. so i better start saving first. and i cant wait to teach jazz:D thanks ms foo!

okies i better go now. later i late joyce poor thing alone wandering. ugghhhhsss. results results!

2009-01-10T21:22:00.002+08:00

limei's trying to learn the ponyo song! haha! so adorable and candilicious lols
i like:D

almost finished my second shoe sample! i dont really like it though lols. it was like just another random shoe customizing of mine. no concept at all lols. why? cos it was the very first shoe we tried to paint, and chow kinda scrwed it, then tried to salvage it. so here i am repackaging it hahah! and i dont think its going to go to any customer, cos its my size, and its really small lols! so no worries, if you order that design, its not going to be some lousy screwed up and got repaired shoe!:D we're quality guaranteed:D

but i did that shoe with someone in mind:)
dont have to guess.
dont think you'll ever guess it lols!

how is it that you make my heart skip a beat,
everytime you come closer, even in the slightest bit.

today went to tuition yuki then came home and worked on the shoe. got to put in alot of hard work to brush up her english! we can do this together:D YES WE CAN!

but i know its impossible.
so im going to stash all those feelings away:)

only mummy and me at home now, so sian.. got no mood to watch my dramas, and noone's online D:

i put his picture down,
and maybe get some sleep tonight

few days back,
limei lied to a friend that she's attached. so SORRY! she ran out of excuses for not going out on a one to one date with him, plus she was frustrated at something else. thinking about it makes me feel like pointing and laughing at myself lols.

its the last 15TH day of the lunar calendar this year:D daddy whipped up an awesome vegetarian dinner! have you prayed yet? its time you thank god for your awesome year:) and im praying for one last awesome thing. get good results for higher chinese Os. ughs.

anyone wants to give limei a lift to rjc from her home every morning next year? lols! i shall buddy buddy with joyce again i guess. i hate long mrt rides :/

limei's good at hiding her feelings:D (or atleast she'd like to think she is)

2009-01-09T21:53:00.004+08:00

limei has finally finished putting all her photos into her precious favourite photo album:D

and i was reminded of taiwan againnnnn!!!!!

while flipping through all the taiwan stuff to see if there's anything i can insert into the albums, i came across the workbook we used in taiwan! and i suddenly felt that i really did very badly for hingher chinese Os. the words i used and the way i wrote while in taiwan is so much CHEEM-er than when im in school. i realise that i used to love chinese so much more in the past. i think my chinese teacher this year really made me hate chinese lessons, thats why my chinese standard dropped like crazy. i want to enjoy learning chinese again, like in taiwan. i just dont understand why they're all chinese teachers, but my taiwan teachers inspire us so much more. i think the passion really makes a difference man. a student can really tell if the teacher's taking the job of an educator as merely an occupation, or means to make a difference in someone's life.

anw, i just wanted to share two poems that i wrote during our lessons in taiwan. its surprising how i was able to have the inspiration and ability to write such poems. in 繁体字 somemore! *laughs at limei* lol!

望君

窗外草忧忧，良人执戟战

问君何处去，千载空悠悠

远处白云下，想象血染沙

青山郭外斜，高歌原君返。

困兽爱情

我是大海的一条鱼，

大海四处幽蓝

无穷的神秘，

因的别而被你捕去

没来得及摸着头序。

鱼缸里缤纷的小石块

像大海里缤纷的珊瑚礁

大的大，小的小，

圆的圆，方的方。

你用深蓝的眼眸往下盯，

我用深情的双目仰望着你。

孤独的你呵护着我，

我陪伴着寂寞的你。

我爱恋着你，你爱恋着我

但永恒的爱不能靠一无所有

生活更是不能有你掌控。

被爱是幸福，不幸是束缚，

心不能被切割，彼此只有分离。

只有分享，没有博取。

我是鱼缸里的一条鱼。

鱼缸四处只有幻觉，

边缘是围墙。

因谅解你让我离去，

永远记得你掌心的痣。

wheeess.. cheem not? cheem right! haha but limei doesnt write like this in Singapore leh. :( i wonder why... ohwells.

went grocery shopping with mummy, and bought nectarines! yums:D i love nectarines!

2009-01-08T21:06:00.002+08:00

went to develope my taiwan plus prom plus concert plus random photos! finally i can start putting all my favourite memories into albums:D

then took 198 all the way down to queensway shopping center to buy school shoes:D and im super happy i got one that i really like at a really cheap price, in a really short time! i spent less than 2 hours! and guess the price! its...........................*drum rolls* 64 BUCKS!!!!! super cheap right! UP 119bucks leh. but they were having a sale! and it asics! i like asics shoes cos their light and not that loud and striking:d oh and its purple and grey. LIMEI LOVES PURPLE:D whoa, but seriously i cant deny the fact that blue things have been catching my eyes. i kept looking at the blue ones lol!

then ate the katong laksa there that i've been craving for a really long time! whesssss.. then jiejie was quite full, so she couldnt finish, and i practically ate 2 huge servings of it! ugghhhsss limei's going to grow fat D: lol!

yummy yum yum!

limei's recommendation! haha!

anw, then jiejie wanted to go IMM to see the body shop sale that i went to. aft tht, its home sweet home1 sheessh i really think im getting old, how come shopping can get me so lethargic!

anw, i must apologise to fiona baby! cos i was supposed to go buy shoes with her instead. then turns out jiejie's not having school, so she insist we go buy together before my sch starts and i get super busy, i start disappearing lol! SORRY FIONA!

oh and monday we're getting back our higher chinese Os results! ugghhhhhhssss... super scared! i really have a feeling i did super badly. the same feeling i get everytime we get back our math papers. and this is really bad cos everytime i get this feeling, i always failed my papers. argghhhhsss... so regretted not starting my revision early and studying harder instead of slacking around! gees..... i really really need good luck, and i pray that everything turns out fine. i just need an A. if its a B , i'll definitely have to take chinese all over again :S

ahhh... LIMEI PRAYS VERY HARD AND PRAYS THAT HER PRAYERS WORK!